Overcoming A Bad Habit.
Hello, my name is Dallas and I suffered from Dermatillomania for basically my whole life. Ever since I was very young, I can remember having it. For those of you who don’t know, Dermatillomania is when you pick your skin until it bleeds, scabs over, and then pick it again. It is a vicious and never-ending cycle. I had a mild case of it where I only picked the skin on my lips. I know there are worse cases where people pick at their entire body. I also had Trichotillomania and that is when I pulled out all my eyelashes and the split ends of my hair.
I have been studying the law of attraction for about five months. I took an honest look at my life and asked myself how I attracted the good and the bad in my life. It all made sense that based on my beliefs, I had attracted the good and the bad in my life and that’s when I really, 100 percent believed in the law of attraction. I was believing in stuff that hurt me, harmed me, and prevented me from doing a lot of things in my life.
From that point on I decided to believe in something greater! I knew I would attract what I believed in. I just had to program my new beliefs in my subconscious mind and even if the objective, the external world showed differently, I knew internally in my subjective world that it would manifest. I studied the law of attraction every day for five months and I took an honest look at my life. That’s what made me believe in it. Bob Proctor, Dr. Joe Dispenza, and Bruce Lipton were the main people I studied.
I did visualizations and got emotionally involved with my desires. I meditated to practice focusing on one thing and not letting my thoughts control me. When I would wander, I would come right back to my desire and I trained my brain to focus. Any negative thought I replaced with a positive thought. I did self-hypnosis. I had vision boards. I did affirmations. I had an affirmation app that popped up my affirmations every hour on my phone. I read books. I loved studying it because it all made sense to me. And yes, I had days where I didn’t want to meditate. I had days where my thoughts were negative and I just couldn’t seem to break the cycle. I had days I’d say my affirmations like a robot not really feel them. I skipped hypnosis sometimes. I had days where I would pick my lips so bad but I kept pursuing this, knowing that my subconscious would be trained with repetition.
I ended up discovering a lot of my limiting beliefs and the one that drove my Dermatillomania and Trichotillomania was my belief that I had to be perfect in order for someone to accept me. It took a lot of digging into my past and it was painful but once I discovered the truth, it set me free! The awakening process is destructive but it is the best thing you can ever do for yourself. I had adopted that belief based on my past with my dad. He was emotionally unavailable. He never showed me love, affection, attention, or cared about my personal life. I thought something was wrong with me and that I wasn’t good enough so I tried to seek that in other men to fill that void! And because I didn’t think that I was worthy, I attracted men who didn’t see it either. I also craved attention so I would go for the first guy who showed me attention. I did not have any standards for myself. They would cheat on me and disrespect me, affirming more of my belief that something was wrong with me and that I wasn’t good enough!
So I adopted a new belief that maybe if I was doing more, more money or a better body, then a man would love me and I’d be good enough. That’s when I strived to be perfect! Any flaws I had I would be scared to admit because I thought a man would leave me. That’s when my Dermatillomania and my Trichotillomania started. I saw imperfections in myself. I felt and saw the loose skin on my lips and I’d pick until I felt that it was perfect. In the end, it led to an addiction and over-grooming, which in the end, was far from perfect.
At first, I didn’t know why I was picking my lips. I would just visualize perfect lips not realizing that was adding to my belief that I had to be perfect. I had this overwhelming peace of mind when I discovered the truth. You might have to do some digging to find those core beliefs but it’s so worth it! Don’t give up.
Once I discovered all that I had to affirm to myself that I was enough! And that it was OK to have imperfections. That the loose skin on my lips was OK to have. That I would be loved, no matter what. I didn’t need to be perfect. There was nothing more I could be doing. I had to realize my worth! It took a little bit. It’s not going to happen right away but I promise if you stick with the techniques to program that new belief, it will manifest.
What helped me believe in this stuff was studying every day. Every time I studied I discovered something else. It all made sense. Also, you have to also apply it to your life! Seriously, take an honest look at your life and see why you attracted the things you have, both good and bad! You’ll see this stuff is real!!
Thank you so much Rhonda for making The Secret! It changed my life and I can’t thank you and all my mentors enough.
Add me on Instagram if you have any questions! I will gladly answer and talk to anyone about this. @dshucha