Never doubt yourself
Hi, I first heard about THE SECRET team through the Oprah Winfrey show years ago, I think I was still in high school and I am now 26. I was really inspired to do my vision board when I first saw it, but never really took it seriously and eventually I stopped practicing. 5 years ago I was hanging out with my friend and she had a dollar on her wall with handwritten zeros on it. The dollar reads $1M and I initially thought about THE SECRET and STILL did not practice it.
2 years ago, my roommate was watching THE SECRET and she was pushing me to watch it as well. I told her that I was aware of it, and would practice it soon and AGAIN I STILL DIDN’T.
I was working full time then and had to quit because I wanted to focus more in school, since I’m close at getting my bachelor degree. I quit my job and had $2000 to get by. I had credit card payment, internet, car, insurance, rent, power, cellphone and all other bills to pay. I was SO WORRIED that I wouldn’t have a job and would ran out of money.
Every single day I was actively seeking employment, but it was so hard for me to get in. I had few phone interviews, but there was never a follow up. Then I saw the right position for me. I prayed SO HARD, and I TRULY BELIEVED THAT I WORK SO SO HARD TO GET THE POSITION. I have never prayed so much my entire life. I felt like I was in a convent. I did get the job and I really enjoyed it, however the hours that they gave me and the pay was lower than I expected. I stayed for almost 2 years and quit last June 28.
3 weeks before quitting, I started looking for a job and had a lot of interviews, BUT THE PEOPLE AROUND ME ARE SO NEGATIVE THAT I STARTED TO THINK THAT WAY. Everyday I started worrying and doubting myself. The night before my last day, I wrote on the paper that I WILL start working on the first week of July and so everyday I looked at it and was STILL ACTIVELY seeking employment. I was on the computer EVERY 20 MINUTES submitting resumes and applications.
2 weeks had past and I was still unemployed and for some reason my instinct, spirit guide, angels, dead relatives or whatever you want to call them kept telling me to stop applying and each time (I KID YOU NOT) I try to apply a voice would tell me to stop applying.
So I stop applying for a job, I let go, I started writing in PRESENT TENSE and guess what, for the past 5 days I had 3 interviews in each day.
Then it hit me, the HR office from my first job (where I had to quit for school) was in front of the employee entrance and each time I passed by I would tell myself that I would work in HR someday. A month after I quit, I was hired as an HR REP and stayed for 2 years. The universe gave this to me because I KNEW EXACTLY what I wanted and I FOLLOWED THROUGH. I let it go and trusted the universe.
3 weeks after I quit the HR job, I told myself I want to work in a fashion industry or advertising, but I don’t want to sell or do retail. I want a desk job. I think the universe was ready to give this to me sooner BUT I WAS DOUBTING MYSELF that I made the universe in limbo or confused. I wanted to get a job immediately BUT I ACT AS IF I WILL NOT GET A JOB. I would constantly look and look and I think the universe sensed that I WAS CONSTANTLY LOOKING and so each time I looked, there would always be tons of openings but no job offers.
Although I’ve seen the dvd and read the book before, I watch and read it again and this time I STOP DOUBTING. I stop thinking that I’m crazy for affirming or pretending something that has yet to happen. I started to be grateful and wrote on my journal everyday IN PRESENT TENSE! I went to stores and pretend that I have money to buy things (window shopping). I wrote down all the things that I like and would buy. I still prayed for my needs but I had more faith and it didn’t feel that it was too hard to get what I wanted. I started trusting.
So the things I learn from THE SECRET are KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT, BE SPECIFIC. DO NOT CONTRADICT IT WITH YOUR ACTIONS. BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE WORTH HAVING IT AND FOLLOW THROUGH. STOP DOUBTING. DON’T CONFUSE THE UNIVERSE!!!!
Oh btw, I got the job as an admin assistant in the fashion industry. NO SELLING NO RETAIL. haha.