So, my girlfriend and I have been going through some rough spots lately. Some really rough spots! And I was starting to get really depressed about it and started to get really doubting about everything.
I have some issues that I needed to go to counseling about, and she has had constant things to say about these issues, and they really would get in the way of the growth of our relationship, to the point of pulling us apart. She told me that she needed some space from me and so I have had to stay at some friends houses. We did live together but we have decided to move into separate apartments.
I was starting to get really depressed. And then one night I decided it doesn’t have to be this way. I wasn’t supposed to meet with my counselor until another week. But right then and there I decided I wanted to do everything I can to fix things. I called my counselor and left a message to get an earlier appointment asap.
The next morning I collapsed in the shower begging the LORD (the universe) to send me a sign that this will all work, and at that very moment my cell phone rang and it was the counselor saying that I could come RIGHT NOW to get seen and to start the process. Right then I was like WOW!
Then it gets even better. After the counseling I realized some things and I decided to start writing things in my journal… positive affirmations. And then I went through the entire list and visualized every single one down to the last detail, and I even faked the feelings I would feel if they would happen. I was visualizing a phone call that I wanted from my girlfriend, even pretending to answer my phone and have a FULL conversation of what I wanted to talk about, and I would respond to the things I wanted to hear from her. She didn’t call me that day but she did the next day, and we had THE EXACT SAME CONVERSATION that I had been “practicing”!!! We both decided that we want to work through this no matter what, and that we can do this together.
I don’t know what is going to happen next, but I do know that beyond any doubt she and I are meant to be together and no matter what we will. I am going to continue to visualize everything!