“I am so happy and grateful now that…”, at the age of 28 (I am now 42) I decided I had enough of being depressed, second best, ugly, stupid, good for nothing, and not worth a hoot, and with all my soul, I put my whole self into changing myself into the person I believed I COULD be. I decided that I wanted to be a great spiritual leader and healer… and instead of going by other people’s examples or staying away from other people’s examples, I decided that I would define spiritual leader and healer as per what I knew from the vastness of my soul.

Well, that was a good 14 years ago, and just like The Secret folks have said, “You don’t know how it’ll happen, you just know it will…take that first step.” It really does happen that way. I’ve decided that I don’t mind if perfection is already here, comes tomorrow, or at the very end of a very long life. I’m going to love the whole journey. There’s long stretches of time when I am a driven person, passionate and remaining true to myself, and then there’s long stretches of time that I forget to “feel” passionate… forget that when I feel passionate about anything, the thing that I feel passionate about is always a success, EVERY SINGLE TIME, no exceptions. How I forget I don’t know… but I do. Eventually things happen that I feel divinely inspired towards, and I jump on that and act with passionate, deliberate intent to do the thing… and I believe with 100% knowing, without knowing how I know, that it will succeed, and it is successful every time.

Though I have successfully practiced this for 14 years now, for a while I had forgotten to remember the basic rules of Law of Attraction, and had begun to get in a slump. I’d started thinking that human beings are nothing more than a virus on the face of the earth, killing everything as they live and reproduce.

Then one day “The Secret” came to me out of the blue. Up until that day I had ignored its existence, thinking it to be just another self help thing. I watched the movie via internet and was floored. OH MY GOD. Now I remember… again. Now I remember why I used to enter a room and hug everyone in it in my mind. Now I remember why I would touch a person and KNOW that they were being healed, think healing thoughts towards the sick and injured, now I remember why I started thinking only strong, loving thoughts about me every day, and why I’ve known for 14 years now that I am energy.

I am so happy to be reminded of myself by watching the movie and listening to the audio book. I have cried tears of JOY many times in the past three days as I remember to do the things that are suggested I do, those things I did many years ago out of self preservation and now I am reminded of them again.

Thank you to all those involved in the whole “The Secret” process. My latest thing is that I’ve been promoted as Supervisor for Walmart on the front end, and it’s been a total blast working with everyone knowing what I know about being energy and how it works on my level… we’re going places and I know it, and it’s a fun time getting everyone on the same page one day at a time. As well, I’ve had a long standing goal of fixing my teeth, and going back to school to learn holistic healing and then buy up 200 acres of prime McDonald county land to create a Holistic Healing Spa… which takes money, courage, intelligence, and purpose… and just as the The Secret folks suggest, now that I remember to remember a few important things every day, I’m making room and changing my daily life to receive the money making ideas, the financial freedoms, and the love and support.

It is good to remember. Be well, be strong, and be happy everyone~

San