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My Secret.
Submitted by: Srishti
New Delhi, IndiaI am eighteen years old, in Engineering first year.
Hi everybody! If you have time and you plan to give up on life, I suggest that you read this. What The Secret has given me I can’t put into words, but I wish I could show you how I feel right now. Thank you so much Rhonda Byrne for this beautiful creation of yours, you have saved me.
I had always been a happy child. I worked hard at everything and had unexpectedly become the topper of the class. I was adored by all my teachers, my family loved me and I was the most pampered child of the family. Everyone was proud of me. I got the lead role in the school play when I didn’t even audition for it. I had the craziest and the coolest possible friends and I was quite popular in school.
Well it all started when I was sixteen years old. So basically I found out about The Secret and wanted to use it to attract a beautiful body, excellent grades and what not. But I could never really believe in it. I never believed I could get popular. I mean even thinking of it made me revolt. Instead I started journaling about my problems and guess what? My life turned around. I was skeptical about my future, my grades, my looks and my friends. I didn’t realize this, but I started losing everything. And through all this, I started victimizing myself even more, worsening the situation. In short, I doomed myself. I failed an exam in the eleventh grade, and lied to my parents, which made them lose faith in me. I spent most of my time at home, doing nothing but overthinking when I was supposed to be studying and building my future. I did not understand a word in my books. Slowly, in the twelfth grade I reached a point where I failed every single exam.
I think the only good thing I was doing was faking that I was alright and acted confident, though my gut knew about my clutter. I thought no one could ever understand me. I was hopeless, no one knew, but I used to think about committing suicide three times a day. I even had a mental breakdown, where I lay for eight hours straight on my couch, holding myself from doing anything wrong, blank, while everyone in the family was out for work. I did not want to hurt my mother, I loved her and she was the only reason why I was alive. She was my only source of true happiness when everyone else stopped believing in me.
Then one day I was sitting in my school library alone and thinking about what I would do in my board exams, twenty days from then, when I did not know a word. I saw The Magic lying on the table. Okay so, here’s what happened next. I opened it and started reading. I had nothing to lose. Twenty days to my exams, twenty eight Magic Practices. I did as it said, surrendered myself to the Universe. I completely relied on it and gave it all I had.
I took all my exams. I scored eighty eight percent! I got into a government Engineering college, and my parents and other family members boasted in front of others. They said they were proud of me. I regained my dignity, my family’s love and faith.
Honestly, I never liked the people around me much because they were too serious or fake and I always felt alone. But here I am, God sent me to the best place. This is a small college where everyone is there for everyone. I have found true friends and we laugh and joke all the time. My life has turned so beautiful and effortless, it is sugar and spice and everything nice. I am a free bird, a naughty child, everybody is so fond of me. My college is right next to the college where my mother teaches so I get to spend so much time with her. God has given me so much more than I could ask for. My grades in the first semester were average, but I was not judged, everyone still loves me the same. In fact I have found two new best friends who are the coolest people I have ever met. And that was one of my wishes. They are just magnificent and I couldn’t even imagine it was possible to meet someone so similar to me and yet poles apart, who made me laugh, adjusted for me, bore my tantrums, shut me out sometimes and still admire and adore me. As for my grades, I got the highest marks in class in two subjects and did extremely well in the rest. I know there is so much more this world has for me that is magnificent, exciting, wonderful and beyond my imagination and I am going out there to discover it all.
Love you loads, Magic Dust to all!