My Pink Carnations
I was introduced to The Secret in 2007 and at that time I bought the book. I made a list of all the things I wanted in life at that time, relationship, job, family, lifestyle but I wasn’t preparing myself for this to really happen.
My back story is that I was in a relationship for a few years which ended with a terrible break-up. We tried to stay friends but things happened as they always do and I found it easier to just cut ties so that I could move on with life. I have always loved this man and still do to this day. I found out that he married and I figured he was happy with his wife or never would’ve gotten married in the first place. Well, after 5 years of not speaking at all he contacted me out of the blue to see if we could rekindle a friendship.
I was astounded, since buying The Secret I would lay in bed each night and pretend he was beside me. I would say “I love you” and say “I love you” back to myself, as if it were him. My heart would fill up with joy.
Well, when he contacted me I knew I had drawn him back into my life. He told me that he was separated and that his divorce would be finalized soon. We rekindled our deep friendship and one thing led to another and we were back together. Then my doubts set in which triggers his doubts. Needless to say that after a few months we were only friends and now we’re not speaking.
Here’s where my pink carnation comes into play. I know this man will be my husband someday so I’m not worried about our not speaking at this time because I know he loves me. I dove head first into The Secret… only watching comedy shows… trying to rid my life of drama. I’ve been playing more with kids to prepare myself for becoming a mother… doing all the things in life that make me happy. I still do my bedtime ritual of “I love you’s.” I made a pact that I was going to draw a pink carnation into my life and that I’ll know it’s only because of The Secret. I figured it wouldn’t be too hard since I see them all the time.
Well, a month goes by and no pink carnation… I saw pink flowers and started to convince myself that this was it and then thought, no I will find pink carnations. So, I let the thought go, knowing that I’ll see it when I see it. The other day I was driving past a cemetery and stopped to visit one of his deceased loved ones whom I visit regularly and talk to.
I was in a happy mood and was glad because when I visit there I’m normally sad and crying. I went up to the headstone to talk and laying on it were two pink carnations. I kept saying “Oh my, I don’t believe it!” over and over again. But the thing is I do believe it. This was my confirmation from the Universe that I shouldn’t give up, which sometimes I feel like doing. I know like I know like I know that this man and I were meant for each other and in an alternate universe we’re already together. I will be back soon to share my update. I hope this inspires you to NEVER GIVE UP on the things you love no matter how long it may take. Sometimes it feels better to take the easy way out but never truly satisfying.
Thank you, Rhonda for publishing this book as it has inspired so many to follow their hearts. I wish everyone well and bless them!