The Secret Was Inside Me
While going to school for Cosmetology, I had an instructor there that showed us the movie “The Secret”. While I was watching this movie, I remember laughing at it and saying if you just have to be positive and think these thoughts, why isn’t it working for my mother to take away her cancer? My mother was the most positive, happy person that I had known and the whole 5 years that she was sick, 4 of those years you would never had known. She would really believe that the radiation and the chemotherapy had worked. We would all say we believed but I know that inside we were all terrified. I wanted to believe that The Secret could be true, but I had found throughout my life whenever I would think positive, something even worse would happen. So I ignored the signs, and she passed, and for the past two years I have been trying to move on and be happy, but my relationships and my life have just spiralled down.
I graduated school right as the USA was going into the Recession and suddenly it was SOO hard to find a job and everything was so expensive where I live. Our house went underwater by $100,000 and my boyfriend was the only one working to pay for everything. All this stress has caused a lot of problems for us and the whole anxiety problem started for me. To make a long story short around the time of New Years, I had 2 bad panic attacks, and after that I realized what was really going on and I told myself, I have to take control of myself, I want to be at peace and be happy. Since then I have been doing yoga and exercising and taking more time to think about what makes me happy. I have also been spending more time doing fun things with my kids and not worrying about all the bills and the money and just having fun and relaxing.
Well I want to say its working and a few weeks ago, I finally picked up the book “The Secret” that has been in my house for about a year now. I guess I have already known what The Secret was, I just didn’t know how to put it in words. Let me tell you, it has been almost instantaneous with what I’ve seen and felt. When I read the book and start really concentrating on everything I’m thinking and using the 3 steps, I get goose bumps and I get this good feeling inside. The first things that I asked the Universe for was to feel really happy with my life, to be healthy and for my children to be happy and healthy, and to find peace, in that order. Well the first day that I signed up for the Masters of The Secret Website and I started to listen to a Joe Vitale interview, he said, “We all want to find Happiness from within, be healthy and at Peace with life.” I almost cried.
So then my 20 month old daughter has been starting to talk, and she has been reminding me of an old friends son, so I started thinking about her again. I thought this girl was lost or dead, because of the way we stopped talking since last year. Well, she called me out of the blue 3 days ago.
I am happy to say The Secret is working for me so far and this weekend we are going to the casino, because I am so grateful and lucky that I know we are going to hit the Jackpot! Thank you!