On July 22, 2006, my world fell apart when my oldest son, Kelly, who was 31 years old, was shot to death by his wife. I died that day right along with my son. I couldn’t function and my family seemed to pull away because they did not know how to deal with me. Suicide seemed to be the only solution to help me through this problem. So one night, I sat at the kitchen table with every pill I could find in the house. I just was not sure if it was enough to end my misery or if it would just put me into a mental institution for a while. So I poured all the pills back into the bottles and just cried.

I work as a pharmacy technician, and my next day at work there was a relief pharmacist that I had not worked with before. She and I connected so close during that eight hour shift, that I opened up and told her how I was feeling and what I had almost done the night before.

She introduced me to “The Secret”. She told me about the book and the DVD and told me a little about it. It caught my attention. I went home and looked on line for the book. All the web sites had it at a price I could not afford at the time, so I went to the library and low and behold they had it. I went home with the book under my arm, impatient to read it.

By the end of Chapter 2, I had to have the book, so I went back on line and bought it even though I could not afford it. My time ran out with the library and I did not have the book finished yet, so I raced to the library to get it renewed but they could not do it as someone else requested the book. So, I only got half way through the book. I needed to finish it and the copy I ordered had not arrived yet. I went to Amazon.com and ordered the DVD, which arrived in several days.

I watched the DVD and I watched the DVD and I watched the DVD. I watched it eight times in the period of two and a half days. I couldn’t stop watching it. Every time I watched it again, I got something else out of it. I made my husband watch it and my mother watch it and my daughter watch it. They just were not as attracted to it as I was.

It clicked! It felt right! It opened a door for me that I desperately needed. It cleared out the cobwebs in my mind. It gave me a sense of peace that I needed so bad. I finally stopped crying. I had a reason to get up and get out of bed in the morning. It lifted a burden on my shoulders and my heart.

I opened myself up to The Secret. Every friend and family member I come in contact with, I tell them about The Secret. They see the change in me. I have gone on to reading books by some of the other authors in the book and DVD, and my life has been drastically changed. I am a sponge now that just can’t soak up enough from all my reading. And I still watch the DVD at least twice a week to keep me motivated and in tune with the Universe and God.

I have learned to let go of the loss of my son, as I know one day we will be reunited again, but it will be in God’s time and not a time of my own making. While I am here on this earth, I will reap the rewards of my life and The Secret. I strive each day to learn something new, and I study and I journal and my life is becoming wonderful and happy again. I know my son is proud of me now as he watches from above.

I am thankful to James Ray, Jack Canfield, John Assaraf, Bob Proctor, Mike Dooley, and Joe Vitale, whom I hope one day I would have the great pleasure of meeting. These six men have no idea how they pulled me out of a dark hole and helped to rebuild my life. I am grateful to Rhonda Byrne for pulling this all together and sharing it with the world. People told me that one day there will be a light at the end of my tunnel and in time, my sadness would be replaced with joy. Right now, my tunnel is totally lit up and it is all because of The Secret. I cannot share it enough with all the people I come in contact with. If all these people can help me and bring me a new life, imagine who else out there in the Universe is getting the same help as me. The world has to be flying as high as I am now.

May God Bless you all and bring such wonderful joy to all of your lives. The Secret is a true blessing!!!!!!!!