It takes practice!
I picked up “Law of Attraction” from my mom who has been abused and suffered at young age. Her thirst for the meaning of life benefits me. She told me “you can be, do, or have anything you want in your life”. That was a wild concept 15 years ago in Asia. However, somehow I listened and took it to heart.
Growing up, I have countless occasions where LOA worked wonders. Once I was jobless, standing in the kitchen declaring to my mom that I would find a job shortly that can fully use my English skills. Mind you, before that moment I had always been in retails with no office skills. My declaration seemed a bit far-fetched. Three days later, I received a call from a vice president of a company whom I met at my previous job asking me if I’d to work for him as a secretary assisting Canadian and Australian managers. He specifically told me: this job requires excellent English skills. I gladly accepted it.
After beginning this job, I moved ever further to my biggest dream since childhood – becoming a U.S. citizen. I grew up watching Hollywood shows/movies and English is always my favorite subject at school. I can memorize the whole text book before the semester even begins. When seeing foreigners on the street, I’d converse with them excitedly as I am eager to speak the language and get to know their culture. I day dreamed about walking on the street of NYC, driving up Beverly Hills, and expressing myself freely as it’s encouraged in this country.
However, owning the citizenship in the U.S. wasn’t an option for me at that time. You need either substantial amount of funds or relative sponsorship. I had neither. As time progressed, I gradually forgot about this desire as it also became more impossible.
One day, my co-worker brought her friend who was visiting from the U.S. to work. 3 years later that man became my husband and now I am a U.S. permanent resident.
The story doesn’t end here. After coming to States, I had a rough time settling in and making money to support my family back in Asia. I had no degree, no working experience in the US, and no connection. All I knew was my family needed money to survive. I visualized HARD everyday that I dressed up well and professionally for work and earn $3,000 per month. In my visualization, I was happy, professional, and proud.
Now I earn $5,000 a month as an office manager. I dress professionally and appropriately for work with a fashion sense.
I have been in this job for 4 years now but I have also been somehow depressed or “low”. I didn’t know why a perfect respected job with flexibility and trust from my boss still didn’t satisfy me. I began searching around 2 years ago. The journey of searching for an answer has been bumpy. You will have people tell you that you should be content when there are millions of jobless people out there. Or how many horrible bosses they have experienced therefore you should appreciate what you have and stick with it until you retire at age 65. I sway between the thoughts of pursuing of my dream or staying at this job forever. To complicate things, I didn’t know what my dream is. The unsatisfied feeling haunted me and filled me up with fear for everything. A job becomes difficult when you are not interested in it. I fear just about everything of my job. The fear and worry caused insomnia for almost 1.5 years.
I was very much like an unhappy zombie moaning about everything in my life.
I am sure at that moment, I completely forgot about the “LOA”. I fell into the normal world’s way of thinking – get a job with benefits, get a house, and get a second one, live your 9-5 life until you retire. This thought depresses me to no end.
Recently, I somehow picked up LOA again as I was worried about something for work and all of a sudden, my mind shouts – why don’t I try LOA and visualize the the opposite of what I am worried about? That thought triggered my to pick up the Secret again, purchased more related books, set up my goal, and visualize daily.
The most precious thing occurred in this reunion with LOA is I found my true calling – performing.
I have been passionate about singing and acting since God knows when. I have goosebumps and endless energy when I perform and I am very natural at doing both. I had many people comment the same, too.
But the thought of getting a “practical” job is just too deeply rooted in my mind and prevents me from pursuing my dream.
After reading The Secret, It’s Not About Money, and Think and Grow Rich, I have determined that it’s time. Interestingly enough, my church has recently asked me to be in a X’mas play and choir!
Now I am set and clear on my goals, I will keep practicing the LOA, visualizing, and not letting any negative thoughts intervene the true calling of my life!