The Universe Has Only Been Kind
Apologies for the LONG POST. But I really need to share my story of “enlightenment” with you all! 🙂
I read The Secret in 2010 and started applying the Law of Attraction to my life – on again & off again. Actually, it has been more off than on. Every time an exam comes near, I take out the books, read the teachings & try to “manifest” a pass in the last minute. Needless to say, the results haven’t always been ‘good’.
From 2010-2013, I’ve applied the Law for every time I had to give my CA exams. And although I couldn’t clear in the first attempt, the Universe has been kind enough to pass me in the 2nd or 3rd. (And I say Kind because if someone had prepared for exams as abysmally as I did & did not know The Secret, they wouldn’t have had a chance to clear even in the 2nd attempt!) I didn’t understand The Secret back then. I thought I did but the truth is – all I did was wishful thinking. Hoping I’d clear the exams without having to work too hard. And it didn’t even occur to me to apply the Law to other parts of my life. I was overweight, had no friends, had a serious low self-esteem and was unhappy all the time. AND YET, despite all odds, I cleared my CA exams.
The REAL STORY of enlightenment happened a few days ago. I decided to get myself certified in a course that is considered to be a good combination with my CA degree. The exam was very expensive and lack of work experience meant I’d be at a disadvantage in answering many case based questions.
Once again, the crying, trembling, fear, hope all came into picture. My mom was getting unhappy seeing me so scared & crying. I felt bad that I was going to (once again) “disappoint” my parents by not clearing the exam in the first attempt. I soooo wanted that 1st attempt PASS because I didn’t want my parents to spend so much money again for me to re take the test.
After crying terribly (while trying to study) for 6 hours straight, I was dehydrated and tired and had less than 12 hours left for the exam. Exhaustion finally led me to stop crying and see things clearly. I knew I couldn’t bring back time. I knew I needed to do damage control. I knew I had to cram over 1200 pages worth of material into my head. But best of all, I JUST KNEW how I would pass. I went online and found a similar passing certificate, edited my name and marks I wanted in it and posted it as my desktop wallpaper. I ASKED the Universe to PASS me in the FIRST ATTEMPT. (At this point, I honestly didn’t feel like I need to score the best marks. All I wanted was a pass). Every time I felt scared (that I didn’t understand concepts) I read a few pages of The Secret and cleared my head from all the negative emotions.
On the next (test) day, I told myself that I’d pass this test TODAY in the first attempt. I saw myself coming out of the exam hall with a big smile. I saw myself squealing in delight with my mom. And then, I went in. (You should probably know that this test was a multiple choice question format. But it wasn’t easy. Many questions had more than one correct answer to choose and if I didn’t choose ALL the correct choices, I’d lose the entire mark.)
The paper was easy. Out of 80 questions, I could comfortably answer 50 questions. I either knew the answers or could eliminate the wrong choices for sure. And the remaining 30 questions were confusing for me. So before answering every question, I visualized the score card with a PASS on it. I went with my gut. I had ample time to check and recheck many times within the 3 hours. I’d say, I answered for 2 hours and Visualized a PASS for 1 hour! 😀 I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. But right from the start to the finish, I only visualized seeing a PASS on the computer screen. I hit complete and ACTUALLY SAW THAT I PASSED – with 80% marks! Which means I got about 64 questions right! 🙂 🙂 I could not contain my joy and ended up dancing all the way back home! 😀
I wondered how the Universe responded to me immediately this time. How I passed in the first attempt. The answer that I believe is – I’ve finally learned to ASK for what I want exactly the way I want. Previously, I had been asking for less than what I deserved or making compromises or not being clear enough. (For example, I said I wanted to pass CA exams. I didn’t say when, with how much marks etc.) So be as specific as you can and as regular as you can.
I have been selfishly using the LOA just to pass exams. But today, I’ve realized how good it can be to design your life exactly the way you want!!
Keep spreading love! 🙂