Gifted with wings
I’ll start by telling about how i came to know “The Secret”. Now to me, The Secret is the same as God or Creator. In my culture I was told that the translation of Kiizway Manitou means: everlasting loving spirit.
I’m not much of a writer, but I will do my best to tell this life’s experience. Let me start by stating this is for anyone to take it as you choose.
I was born in a place I referred to as Hell for many years. In this place I was abused in all areas of abuse. Sexually, mentally, physically, emotionally, etc. From the time I was a baby till I was about 18. From the age of 2 I was subjected to alcohol and from there other drugs like weed, acid, and to inhaling gas and other toxic chemicals and smoking every chance I got. As a teenager my drugging and drinking got so bad I ended up on the streets doing bad things to obtain more drugs and such. Prostitution to breaking and entering, you get the picture. Lost a lot of family and friends, some to suicide and alcohol or other related deaths.
So anyway, I ended up in a state of denial so dark, my spirit barely knew it’s existence. I was about 15 this one night laying in my room thinking about suicide and started to write my suicide note. I can’t remember all I wrote but what I do remember is this part: “The only thing that will save me is if I hear the voice of an angel and see the light”. I thought about my sisters who were in the other room. I loved them so much and thought who’s going to protect them when I’m gone. When I heard the youngest of the 2 crying I snapped out of it and went to her aid.
After that my life went into a blur again. For months on end total blur or blackness. Years had passed and still on the streets doing the same things. I ended up on the streets of Edmonton when in my drunken state to finally do myself in. So I staggered toward the heavy traffic.
That night I will always remember. I was taken by the police and I remember fighting with everyone and anyone trying to stop me. In that state all of a sudden I was in total awareness. I looked around me and seen black. I could hear noises, someone crying about sexual abuse and things, and hear this person saying “I want to die I want to die.” Then I realized it’s me. I can hear me. I was inside myself and then a rush of pain flooded into me like I can’t explain. Then the most amazing thing happened. I heard a voice so beautiful that it’s softness felt like it embraced me and lifted me into peace and when I looked upward there I seen the light so incredible so powerful so loving… I can’t explain any of this in writing. That morning I woke up with so much awareness, I realized I wasn’t a child anymore. I was born in Oct of 75, when I awoke it was I think march of 92. That same morning I heard my first song, “Wind beneath my wings”.
Since that morning a lot has happened. What I feel at this time after listening to “The Secret” is to share my knowledge or understanding of The Secret. It’s an incredible energy of Everlasting Loving Spirit.
It inspired me to write this years ago
‘Gifted with wings’
As changes come with the winds
at the spread of wings
embracing the natural way.
Through cycles across the open sky
eagles glide with prayers they carry
for this day going by.
“Thank you for everything
for this heart drumming harmoniously to the song the birds sing. For the teachings, the life of a butterfly and to love always unconditionally: to every seed of every being, for every flower has a natural power, blown in the winds free”.
I felt inspired to share this and thank you for taking the time to read it.