I’ve been married for over two years now. My reasons for getting married weren’t the right ones and now I find myself torn between staying in a relationship that doesn’t bring me the happiness that I need, and hurting the woman who has come to love me. She is presently unwilling to accept a divorce and has threatened to kill herself on a few occasions when I’ve tried to talk about it.

Lately, though, things have gotten better. I’ve stopped pretending that I love her and she knows how I really feel now. She doesn’t like it but she’s accepting it more and more. My hope is now that one day, we will go our separate ways and be happy with new people who can complete us. She is a great person and I only wish her the best, however, I don’t want to stay married to her.

I imagine her finding happiness with someone who is more prepared to love her the way that she needs. And I’m seeing it happening little by little.