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Maladaptive Daydreamer
Submitted by: S. S.
IndiaA believer
Maladaptive Daydreaming is a condition where a person starts day dreaming excessively. It results in disruption of normal life, low self-esteem, lack of self-confidence, social anxiety and lot more things. It may sound funny because day dreaming is normal, but it’s not when you start creating your own world
just in your mind and refuse to indulge in your normal daily activities. It’s an “upcoming” disease.
It happened to me at a very young age and it was due to a childhood trauma.
I grew up with it and my mind and my life got more and more addicted and habituated with it. All the things I mentioned above were a part of me and I accepted my life that way. Until recently I didn’t even know it had a name and that other people had it.
I had never told my parents about this. Not even the childhood trauma or my state of mind. I thought time would heal everything and no one needs to know. When I turned 22, during my study leave, preparing for my Final CA exams (one of the toughest courses in India), I decided enough was enough. I went to a psychologist without informing my parents, and poured my heart out. I cried and cried and it felt good. I got some tests done and the results showed I was in depression. The psychologist prescribed medicines for me and she said it would help me control my mind, and concentrate on studies and also help me develop my confidence back.
I got really desperate and bought myself the medicines. I prayed to God and swallowed them. The next day morning was the worst I’ve seen of myself. I felt feverish unusually cold from within. That was when something within me woke up. I sat down and calmed myself down. I went to mom and told her about the medicines, the psychologist, the childhood trauma, my fears, my daydreaming. She heard me out, made me drink lots of water and the effects of the medicines wore off. I felt much better.
What happened next is what I have been grateful for every day since then. My mother has been my best friend since. We have started practicing The Secret teachings together. I started meditating 3 times a day. I bought The Magic, practiced gratitude, and visualized my life every night before going to sleep.
Instead of spending hours day dreaming, I started spending time admiring the nature, the trees, the winds rustling and the leaves dancing and feeling grateful for every single thing from the roads, to the moon!! It feels so good that you just love doing it!
I started maintaining a dairy where I would write auto suggestions to myself. I’d write stuff like “I am really proud of myself for helping that aunt in my building”.
Or “I am so good at studying I finished 3 chapters”. And I’d really feel so good and grateful. It helped me improve my self-confidence!!
I now look in the mirror and admire myself. I come here to read stories twice every day and trust me, I get goosebumps when I read about others manifesting their dreams.
It’s been a month now, my day dreaming has completely stopped!!
I have become more and more aware of myself, of the power my of mind, and SO much more self-confident. And most importantly everything happened without the help of any medicines!!
I am still on my study leave and I have my exams in week. I have made a marksheet with all the marks I want to achieve in each subject. I already know how the day of
my CA result will be like because I have seen it and I believe it.
I have a dream of teaching the Laws Of Attraction, the power of our mind, Gratitude and Visualization to those girls in my country who are poor, illiterate, exploited or have been through worse than I have. Because there are still so many such girls who don’t have a computer, internet, or a cell phone, or are illiterate so they do not have access to such an important life changing knowledge.
I know I will because everyone deserves to have a chance to live, to achieve their goals and be HAPPY.
Thank you Rhonda. You have been an angel to so many.
I hope I can be the same to at least one.