Genetically and from traumatic experience as a child, I had anxiety, self-consciousness, and depression. Some moments in life were happier than others, for which I took for granted. As a result of my condition, I tend to push my family, friends and lovers away. I focus on negative situation and doubt their commitment, love, and happiness I bring them in regards to our relationship. Additionally, it impacts me in regards to loving the things I enjoy doing, feeling like I belong somewhere, fall in debt, hate my career path, and more.

While visiting my family over a holiday during one of my college breaks, my Dad pointed me in the direction of the secret. I have applied it and used it off and on to help bring me out of depressed, anxious states of being. However, I would stop applying it along, quite going to counseling, never sought medication treatments for my depression and anxiety for fear of being judged by all this.

This last year, I had met the most amazing man while working together. It took our attraction to manifest. However, once we opened ourselves up to a relationship, we immediately know that we had this uncanny connection. Our love is driven by a deep spiritual, emotional and physical connection to one another. While together, we feel as though anything was possible and truly believe that our love will conquer all. We would talk about getting married, having children, and so much more.

We rushed into things and moved in together, which overwhelmed me. This is because he was formerly married and has two beautiful daughters. Even though I am a child from blended families, I was never too sure what role to play to his daughters, as I want them to love me. I started to worry about them accepting me, our relationship, and our lives together. We also want to form and grow our family by having children together with everyone equally loving and supporting each other.

Additionally, we were both laid off at separate points and moved several times. He was laid off first and then started a new job when I was laid off. We had moved again at this point, so I was alone in a new place. This caused me to question his love and commitment to us being the cynosure our family. My negative, anxious depression engrossed me to where I stopped doing the things I loved, questioning people’s love of me for whom I loved so dearly, wasn’t sure about my career goals, and was confused about my life’s direction.

Even though I was rehired after two months of unemployment within the human resources department (my dream field of work), I was so far succumbed by depression and negativity. I lost weight, had stomach problems, couldn’t sleep, always worried, thought negatively, thought I was worthless, et cetera.

The breaking point was over the holidays. He worked over both Thanksgiving and Christmas, so I spent the holidays alone (my family lives in another state). We had a disagreement which caused me to tell him that I was considering moving away, home. This struck a nerve that caused him to want to be by himself, because we would tell one another that home is wherever the other happens to be.

Devastated, I decided to go home to visit. I needed to remove myself from the situation. I realized that I will overcome and maintain my depression through therapy, medication and utilizing the law of attraction. My thoughts had become my reality, so I started watching and reading The Secret, The Power, and The Magic.

Now, love, appreciation, and believing are allowing me to be me again by following the practices. I am attending therapy, seeking medication, and using the law of attraction daily. My relationship with my soul-mate is improving and our love blossoming daily. There is focus in my job with turning human it into a career. I am eager to do the activities and have the relationships that give me happiness. Growing a family and getting married to my soul-mate has never felt so alive and real. I feel like I am home. My happiness and thoughts that I have is only going to continue to grow and attract what I want in life. I am so grateful for it! I will only succumb to love, positivity, and hope.

I am so grateful for the law of attraction, Rhonda, and everyone who has helped put The Secret, The Power, and The Magic together and make it accessible to people everywhere. I know that what I want is happening and on its way, for which I am internally grateful. Much love, ~S