This past year has been filled with negativity and depression for me. I found myself always expecting the worst from people and situations, which seemed to make everything go from bad to worse. It was a year of disappointment in my relationship, and about a month ago, my boyfriend of 5 years, who was also dealing with his own issues, told me he wanted to break up. I won’t go into all the details of what happened afterward—the begging, crying, and feeling like I wanted to die—because I think anyone who has gone through a breakup knows all too well the phases one experiences.

I’m eternally grateful to my family for being there for me and giving me advice. This was the one thing that kept me going the first days. I knew I wasn’t alone, and I had beautiful people around me. It was my cousin who gave me the best advice, or at least I felt a lot better after I talked to him.

While waiting for some time to pass before calling my boyfriend, I started searching for articles and advice on the internet on how to deal with the situation. That’s when I came across The Secret. I got the book and started reading it instantly. It was amazing! I realized that I had to make a lot of changes in myself because I had forgotten how to be happy with myself. I started applying The Secret immediately, and of course, I felt great. I tried to teach The Secret to everyone I knew. I told my family and friends to read the book or at least watch the movie.

Days passed, and I still missed my boyfriend. One day, I told my friend that I was going to call him. I decided to call him the next day, so the day before, I went home and started writing how I wanted everything to happen. While I was writing in my journal, my phone started ringing, and it was him! I couldn’t believe it! We had a normal conversation, telling each other what we were up to. I forgot to mention that two weeks had passed since the breakup, and during this time, I had attracted a job and finished University, so I had a lot to tell him. I asked him if we could meet tomorrow, and he agreed. We said goodbye, but after a minute, he called again and asked if we could meet right now. So we did.

The thing is, he was miserable again. He wasn’t feeling better; in fact, he felt worse. As much as I tried to be positive, he still remained cold. In the end, he told me he wanted to see me from time to time but not go back to the routine it used to be. I was glad because it was something out of nothing.

After that day, he called me just to check, but that was it. So, I started to feel insecure again. One day, I saw him in the neighborhood, because we’re neighbors, and he was very cold and distant. That was the final push to my negative emotions. I decided to let some days go by and then call him. As much as I tried to feel positive again, it was very hard. In the end, I made the mistake of calling him, and everything ended up in a big and ugly fight with him telling me to go on with my life without him. I was sad again, but not the way it was the first time. That was because I was confident that I could attract him and that The Secret would help.

This time, I reread the book and others mentioned in it. I felt very hopeful and confident. Everything was going great again until I decided to text him. I know, I know, when will I learn?! This time, it was uglier than ever. He even told me out of anger that he didn’t love me anymore. I didn’t believe him, but I felt devastated and hopeless. I thought I had ruined everything.

Finally, I decided to make a last attempt and, this time, not to fall into my old habits. I decided to let a full month go by to better myself and to give him time. I still wrote in my journal, made affirmations, and visualized my love without letting what had happened bring me down.

Two days after the ugly phone call, I decided to write one night only about myself. So before I went to bed, I started writing about how happy I am, how everything I want comes to me, and how grateful I am about this. In the end, I wrote about him as well, but this was after I felt that I was doing better. Then I went to bed and started reading, which is something I like to do before I sleep. That’s when the phone rang, and it was him!

This was definitely unexpected. He said he was sorry about the things he said and I did not deserve anything bad. He told me he was feeling awful and he did not know what he was doing. I said it didn’t matter and not to feel bad about me. He then wanted to see me, so we met and had a walk together. He felt the need to talk to me, and I wanted to be there for him. He said we would talk again. This happened two days ago.

Now I know that hope is very important, and you have to feel great in order for great things to come. I know that I have to be patient because he is in a very bad state, and he needs help and understanding, but I also know that the Universe will always have my back and that things will be even greater.

Thank you, Rhonda, for the help your books are giving to people, and thank you for helping me!