The Power In Loving Myself.
As I sit here writing this letter about myself and the journey that brought me here, there is a huge smile spread across my face. That is because I am a survivor! I am a single mother, a healer, and a magical human being that against all odds, still finds a way to love without any kind of judgment or hatred. I have learned through trial and error that nothing in life can ever compare to the strength of loving myself and practicing forgiving myself every single day. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
For a long time, I did not know what it meant to love myself, to have self-love, or know how to pour time, energy, patience, self-respect, and adoration toward the desires and goals that were deeply hidden inside of my soul. I was born in the United States but at an immensely young age, my caregiver decided to relocate me to an island in the Caribbean. And it was there that I stayed for most of my life, being raised on a farm.
I was cut off from society in many ways. From that experience, I learned how to process my emotions on my own without realizing that there are other young women who are experiencing similar pains of not being where they desire to be in their life. What got me through the most harrowing days and nights was singing. I used my voice to sing away the shame, loneliness, anger, resentment, and fears with as many vocal notes as my voice would belt out.
Then I realized that my dream is to sing on the largest stage in the United States. So I asked the Universe to place me there at every moment, each and every day. When I shared my dreams with family and close friends, there was not any support given to me. However, I accepted that the dream came to me and me alone so it is my responsibility to protect my dream at all costs. The messed up part is that as I entered into my 20’s a lot of problems came into my life and forms of abuse that I truly wish never happened to me.
I thankfully found forgiveness for the wrongs that were done to me and decided to leave everything behind and move back to the United States with my 1 year old daughter. The Secret taught me that I have the power to rewrite my story and to protect my own daughter from reliving the traumatic experiences that I went through. I am so thankful because I know that I am exactly where I am meant to be. I do ask The Secret to give me the opportunity to achieve my dream of becoming a contestant, and of course, the winner of America’s Got Talent. I dream of singing on that stage all of the time and I wish that my dream be fulfilled. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
Peace and love,
Anumaat Davis Kahina