If you Want It, It’s yours
3 weeks ago auditions were announced for my high school’s Vocal Jazz group. Singing is so important to me, and the director is such a nice guy, so I decided to audition.
Just a few weeks before the audition was announced, I read The Secret, and I hadn’t really utilized it before so I decided this was the perfect opportunity. As the audition approached I would tell myself every day that I was already in Vocal Jazz, over and over again until I finally believed it. I even chose not to audition for the fall drama because I thought it would be overwhelming to do both.
However, on the day of the audition, something was off. I hadn’t prepared myself as well as I should have (although trust me, I tried) and I felt completely overwhelmed. I just knew it was going to be a bad audition. I never really thought about HOW bad it was going to be though… and trust me, it was horrible! While my range testing and piece of my own choosing were great, the nervousness of not knowing the other pieces really got to me as I sang them. My voice was cracking on notes I could normally sing with ease. My tone was feeble and weak, not strong and warm like I was used to. It was all wrong and listening to myself fail after I had “put all my eggs in this basket” was humiliating. I could tell my director was shocked at how badly I was doing, and as I left his office I honestly just wished I hadn’t auditioned at all.
I was so disappointed in myself! It was one of the first times I was really confident about getting into a group and yet it was the worst audition of my life. I felt as though I let myself and my director down.
For the next two days I tried to convince myself that somehow my wanting it so bad would get me in, even though I knew it was completely irrational to think so. But, when call backs were posted and I didn’t make the list, I stopped hoping all together. I completely wrote off the idea at all. I mean it would take a miracle (or memory loss!) to convince my director to let me in, right?
Two weeks later my director still hadn’t posted the list of who was in the group. I didn’t really mind, though, considering I was convinced that I hadn’t got in due to my audition. Then, in my 8th period class today, my director pulled me out of class and had me a sing a small piece to him. Next, after admitting to me that my audition was terrible, he told me that he had a spot for me as an alto in the group!!!!!!! I WAS/AM ELATED! I owe it all to The Secret!!! What else would explain why a director would let in the person with the worst audition?!
I’m now a firm believer in The Secret, and I encourage you to be too! For, as you can see, The Secret can make anything happen, regardless of the surrounding circumstances! 🙂