Power Of Belief.
I used to believe that I was always going to have to struggle. I had previously used The Secret and “The Power of Now” to manifest getting into my dream university, which for years I had never believed I would get into.
I revisited The Secret 3 years later after my life started falling apart. My boyfriend left me after 5 years of being together and he completely ignored me for 6 months. My friends also started cutting me out or being disloyal to me. I was experiencing family struggle and financial poverty and I was going to food banks. I was extremely obese. I had 4 months’ worth of overdue rent with an eviction notice, as well as a lot of sketchy experiences. Things like assaults, muggings, and stalking. I was a failing artist. I thought there was no hope and I spent every day shaking in fear of what my future would look like. I thought no one could save me or rescue me from my situation. I felt helpless, I genuinely thought I was dying. The pain was unbearable and feeling like I had no control, I was extremely suicidal, making plans, writing notes, and collecting substances. I had a lot of pain and suffering.
A failed attempt on New Year’s Eve made me decide to download TikTok and share one of my songs that I wrote about heartbreak that I felt that no one would have ever heard if I hadn’t made a new choice for myself. It was there I found Flora Szivos a.k.a. Your Manifesting Bestie and I started to realize that I was powerful. I was more than I was making myself out to myself, and cutting myself down meant I was writing all this sadness into my story.
I was powerful enough to manifest my boyfriend 5 years ago by unknowingly using the law of attraction. I asked for a guy with jawlines, dimples, and chest hair who would never make me feel alone. I realized that the same dormant power resided within me and I could manifest him back. Once I realized it was through my thoughts that I had actually attracted the breakup, I knew that if I saw myself as worthless, of course, he would too.
I started to feel things differently. I started to feel like I was fulfilled in every way and experienced the emotions associated with success as a way of delusionally inducing my new being. I became happier. But it started with feeling and remaining present and accepting everything as part of my journey.
This was when everything changed. I started Googling angel numbers anytime I saw a number that felt right. I stopped doing tarot and other divination. What really worked for me was the ‘lucky penny’. I would find pennies on the street and felt that this was a form of abundance. Today I found a lucky 5p and put it in my back pocket in which I already had 2 more pennies I had picked up. I felt so lucky with my coins. “Find a penny pick it up, all day long you have good luck. Pass it on to a friend, then your luck will never end.”
Realizing I had no friends, a few meters later, I met a homeless man with an empty cap looking sad so I gave him my dull pennies and told him they were lucky. We talked and I realized this man had been abandoned by society, cast aside due to his speech disability, and left to struggle. I tried to pass on some of The Secret to him. Even though part of me felt like I gave my luck for the day away, I said that I was giving this to him so I could make more space for more abundance in my life. The minute I went to put my things in the Library lockers, I found a shiny penny standing up waiting for me right where I chose to bend down. The lucky penny motif is a way of complete reassurance.
In a couple of months of practice, because I had to rewire the way my brain approaches everything, I kept telling myself every event, good or bad was the unfolding of my desired manifestations. My art went from no sales for months to ‘sold out’. I paid my rent and upgraded to a much bigger space, a house with multiple floors and a garden. My website was getting tens of thousands of hits a day, and my apparel was selling like hotcakes on a cold day. I got out of debt for the first time in my life and reached financial prosperity, able to repay and generously compensate all of those that had been keeping me going. I lost huge amounts of weight, I fit into clothes I had not been able to fit into for 4 years. My boyfriend realized I was the only one for him and that no one could compare to me, no one would ever have what I had and I was irreplaceable. He couldn’t stop thinking about me and he felt so bad but didn’t know if I would forgive him. Every single one of my friends found their way back to me and were in fact, desperate to get back into my good books. Not only old friends but I attracted new friends. Also, I attracted new romantic interests that I dated in between getting back with my boyfriend.
I was able to be the person I thought I could be. I donate huge amounts to the food banks that fed me and the other institutions that kept me sustained. I went back and treated the people who showed me love and friendship.
People now take notice of me and my magnetic energy. I am no longer limited the way that I was. Every single dream I ever had, I now actually live. I love the life I created for myself.
Thank you, thank you, thank you! Thank you so very much!