For a long time, I have held in shame and guilt over events in the past. I developed a panic disorder and became fearful of all kinds of disease that could affect my body. I saw myself as being “punished” for mistakes I had made.

I began using The Secret a month ago, and have experienced a radical shift in the way I view life and myself.

Last week, I went to see a nurse at the university over a concern I created from this mindset. She told me I probably had a condition, and took a swab to test for two other conditions.

After the initial shock, I felt surrounded by love and peace. I don’t know how to explain it, but I told my fiancé, I felt as if everyone who has loved me, who loves me, and who will love me is sending me healing energy.

That night, I felt like I was surrounded by shamans and gurus and saints and deceased family as they healed me. I kept sensing them in my sleep telling me, you don’t have to do a thing, except let us heal you.

When I woke up, the next day I had trouble not worrying, but again, I felt their presence while I slept.

When I woke up again, I had trouble not panicking. My fearful thoughts nearly made me throw up, but I again remembered, thought created this and through thought I am healing it. Like in the movie, I said to myself over and over again, thank you for my healing. Thank you for my healing. I pictured my body like a baby’s body, new and fresh and healthy and full of vitality.

When I woke up again, I had great feelings in my heart. I said, over and over again, thank you for my healing, thank you for my healing. I felt relief flood me where the fear once was. I felt myself forgive myself and release myself from the past.

Today, I have called and received news on the test results – PERFECT HEALTH! She said it just like I imagined, “Honey, everything is fine.”

The concern I was worried about has now shrunk and is still shrinking. I know that within just a matter of time, I will be completely healed. I know I will lead the life I want. I know I will one day be an artist, creator, helper, mother, and have a beautiful, long, healthy, life.

Most of all, I know I deserve this. Before, no matter what anyone told me, I could never believe that I deserved good things. The big part of The Secret is healing the mind and the heart, because all conditions stem from these things. All the “outer” is simply a reflection of this “inner”. As I began to accept that I deserved wellness, wellness came.

Thank you everyone. For helping me heal my heart and helping me forgive myself. For helping me realize that I am a new me, and the past no longer exists and no longer affects me anymore.

PS. I have written this before receiving the results. I know I am receiving them! I am going to call right now…

PPS. I have received them! They are just as I expected! JUST FINE! I visualized it all! Falling on the floor in gratitude!