No more drepression
Last year a friend of mine invited me over to Brasil during our summer holidays. I was quite down due to my parents’ resent divorce, so my friends tried to cheer me up as they could. I met a guy who presented me his family. When I returned to Buenos Aires, where I live, we arranged to meet, and from that day on we became inseparable. We fell in love and starting dating. Throughout our relationship we learned how to accept our differences, and how to love each other just by the way we were. I became really close to his family and learned that families can be close to each other, which inspired me to come close to my own family with his help. We lived our days knowing that as long as we had each other nothing could harm us.
Last January he broke up with me because he said he wasn’t in the mood to be in a relationship, even though he loved me. That day I felt as if my life fell apart and broke into pieces. I stopped eating, stopped talking to many friends, and cried most of the day. I immediately looked for help in God, and spent hours and hours crying in the chapel.
As the days went by I didn’t feel any better, and started little by little to give up on me, taking pain killers and smoking. My mother was really worried about me, so she took me to Brasil to spend a week there sunbathing and shopping. It was good, but I really couldn’t let go what I felt inside, and how sad and angry I felt because I didn’t have him with me. I missed him so much I really couldn’t go on.
As I was in negative thinking, I read a book about a drug addict girl, which didn’t help much in my mood. One day we where in a little town shopping when my mother told me to buy a magazine to distract myself a little, because I wasn’t doing well. There was only one magazine in Spanish, and I bought it and read about The Secret.
When I returned to Buenos Aires I kept on having this feeling that I had to buy the book, so I went and read it.
I applied it to my everyday life, and as the days went by I started to get more and more exited, thinking of everything I could get and have using the Secret. I stopped crying every day, could finally sleep, and gradually started eating as I did before my depression.
I learned that I can have anything if I just believe, and this showed me I really can because I really wanted to feel better about myself. I made myself a wish board with pictures of all the things I desire. The thing that I most want is my boyfriend back, and to do this I let all the pictures I had of him in my room. Every day I wake up and every time I go to bed I look at his pictures and imagine him with me. Through my depression I took my watch off because time seemed not to pass by – now I put my watch on again because I may have to meet with my boyfriend at some specific hour. I’m still in touch with his family and even his sister! My friends didn’t think this is the best for me, but I know it is, and I know he’ll come back. He is coming back to me right now, I truly believe it.
So if your heart has been broken as mine was, please don’t give up on your faith, because if you don’t believe in your love then there is nothing anyone can do. I write him letters thanking him for coming back, wear the shirts he gave me, read the letter he once wrote to me, and pretend he is telling those things to me at that precise moment. I’ll keep in touch and I promise to write again when he is here with me, and I’m sure that will happen. Thank you for reading this and please please don’t let go!!!!