My ‘Wow, this is it’ moment
I bought ‘The Secret’ online after seeing an incredibly positive Instagrammer heavily reference the book in every photo of her beautiful life. I thought to myself for weeks that she was just TOO happy, ‘it can’t be real’ ‘she doesn’t even have a boyfriend so she can’t be completely satisfied with her life’. This is where I laugh at how my perceptions were back then and how far I have come. I then looked at my search history, there were a few select females that I seemed to incessantly stalk on Instagram and Facebook yet all I was seeing was a brief snap of their lives. I thought to myself, ‘why am I devoting my time to looking at all these other people’, they are pretty, spiritual, outgoing and seem to fill their lives with so many unique opportunities. Eureka! These are all the qualities and characteristics I have searched for in myself. I felt the first logical step was to buy the book they claim changed their lives… Although I was sceptical. I put off reading it for almost a week until I had some time off from work. I began reading but my mind wandered to random images of events, people, conversations and my future. But something soon changed as I started to feel my emotions, all this flicking to and from my thoughts to images in my mind made my heart race and I felt physically exhausted yet I also felt cold, freezing in fact which is my most hated feeling in the world. I put the book down, made a cup of tea sorted out a council tax bill then sat down again, hoping my attention wouldn’t wane so easily. I liked the idea of the small ‘miracles’ you could test out- so I tried to think of something difficult to find- but all that came into my mind was a picture of a rose- yellow and pink with a thorny stem. No matter how I tried to budge this thought it stayed put. Not only could I not stop thinking of it I felt a great sense of warmth simultaneously, (albeit at this point I attributed it to the tea). I thought, a rose will do and I got on with the book. I particularly liked the section on go-to secret shifters. I remembered a song, the Lark Ascending by Vaughn Williams, which makes me feel so much joy and full to bursting with light, fuzzy, glowing energy. I thought THIS is my secret shifter. I put the book down after the chapter on Powerful Processes- by this point I was kinda hooked although not wanting to admit that to myself. I felt my mind wander again so I went back to my phone to search for the Lark Ascending. I thought it might be nice to have a photo that represented this song as my wallpaper, so I googled ‘lark ascending’ to search for some images. And there it was. The ‘oh my good god what is THAT’ moment. I automatically thought it’s a coincidence, why would a Google search for the lark ascending come up with pictures of yellow and pink roses!? I switched back to a search of the net and the first link was ‘the lark ascending rose’. I was gobsmacked! The rose I imagined and my secret shifter turned out to be one and the same. I thought to myself this has just proved every statement in this book, I beamed, the sun came out and shone into my lounge and I returned to the book I think may be quickly changing my life.