My perfect life.
My life were never the happiest- I was a very insecure girl and teenager and I know what it’s like to lose close friends and loved ones. I know what loneliness is. I used to think I was weak, I thought I was worthless, I thought I was completely alone and I even wanted to die and just quit everything. I believed the world was an evil place. And I constantly had proofs (now I know why, I just wouldn’t stop thinking about terrible stuff, that’s why!) and that was the past.
Wonderful gifts in my life, such as those who I love and love me back, things like my healthy body, my many talents and my amazing mental strength… things I wasn’t even aware of. All of these things became way more significant now, two years after I read The Secret. I stopped being a victim. I became the princess I always knew I was. I’m beautiful, talented and smart. Those are gifts I shouldn’t be ashamed of. I should be proud, and appreciate it – because not everyone have this. It makes me unique.
I’ve changed so much. And my life changed so much. I wanted to write here for a while but I didn’t even know where to start. Oh god this is going to be long. I don’t know where would I be now without knowing The Secret. It feels like being a little girl again, to *know* I can *trust* my life, and that someone is *always* there for me, protecting me from evil. And won’t give up on me no matter what. And that someone… is me. It always was me, I just never *truly* realized that.
I’m now in a good relationship with my family again after many years of distance. Bad people and toxic friends are no longer a part of my life (and this part was the most difficult, it was hard for me to avoid guilt for “abandoning” them). I’m going for my (huge) dreams and as we speaking, making them a reality. I got into an amazing university on the other side of the world(!) thanks to The Secret. In a country so beautiful that I want to spend my entire life there.
I never give up now and I never quit on anything. And the best of all- everything is just so effortless. Sure, practicing performance arts can be very hard, and studies aren’t always easy. I workout everyday and you can’t say I don’t sweat. But these things are *fun*, they’re amazing. They’re the things that give my life a purpose. I feel so good after a practice or a workout, like the day was a perfect day. And then when I have a perfect week, a perfect month… it feels like …wow.
Now when I wake up in the morning I’m just happy. Happy about every challenge, and goal, and hard work and all the achievements I had in life and those that I’m about to achieve.
And I have everything I need. Every time I need money- I find a way to get money. Every time I need a friend- there is someone. My closet is full of amazing clothes and I’m always surrounded by beautiful things. My fridge is full of healthy and delicious food all the time. I have fantastic books to read and TV shows or movies to watch… cosmetics, and jewelries and so much more. I traveled in so many countries and I’m so young. This amazes me everyday, the fact that I’m just so damn lucky. (pardon my French, yeah?) writing all of this down just makes me realize how much.
And I know many people in my situation (or even better situations) can’t appreciate things like this and I think it’s sad… I’m so lucky to know how to appreciate all those things, and all the free things too: good weather, how beautiful the sky is, birds singing, flowers in the garden. Life is so good to me. I wish I could just jump and hug them, I really do. I wish life was this good for just anyone.
Now… when I’ll be back to write another story, I want to talk about how I have a successful career (or how I won the lottery heheh) and I want to talk about my amazing boyfriend, and how positive all the people in my life are. At the moment I’m still waiting for this to happen – for the perfect man to finally meet me, for negative people to be replaced by positive ones, for money making and career perfect decisions. I know these things are happening right now and they’re on their way to me.
And so I’m grateful. I truly am. 🙂 I promise to return here and tell you all about it. And you guys- you just know you’re amazing people. Just the way you are.