My introduction to the Secret
This story begins around August of 2006. Around that time I started daydreaming once again about drawing zest back into my professional life. So many years had gone by feeling lackluster as ever because of my dependency from my business. Love for my business had gone years ago, and I was in search for something new and challenging.
I always treated trading as a natural extension to what I do for a living, yet never really treated trading as a business until now. I began to read several dozen books on the subject, including autobiographies of extremely successful traders of our time. I was so enamored by the swashbuckling that goes on from day to day. I loved the thrill and the excitement associated with trading, and decided to devote myself and my capital to this work.
Over the next several weeks I devoured countless books, seminars, and courses on DVDs. I felt reassured I had mastered the basics. I studied options and my focus was in trading options. I found myself naturally waking up each morning at 5:30 am with butterflies in my stomach. I could not wait till the market open and could not wait for the weekends to end so I could go back to my routine that following Monday. I relished the thrill derived from trading.
As the month ensued I started to take larger positions in every trade I would take. I wasnt satisfied with $1000 profits anymore, even though I was even generating that as a profit consistently. I realized my mistake now is that I had to size down my trades and abandon the Winner Takes All psychology. After an unsettling few months I lost almost $279,000. I was demoralized and devastated. I was also very scared as to the outcome that may emerge in not having liquidity, in the case of an emergency with one of my buildings or a personal matter.
On my worst day my friend Kevin came downstairs into my office and said, here, I want you to see this. It was a DVD copy of a movie I have never heard before, called The Secret. Being a self help junkie I naturally lunged at the opportunity that this may help me put the pieces of my life back together.
Ill never forget the first time I viewed this DVD. The lights were off in my office, headphones on my head while the movie was playing on my laptop. Around the first part of the movie I began to shake. I knew all this but had clearly forgotten to practice what I have always known though my reading of Think and Grow Rich and The Laws of Success 1 & 2. That morning I laughed and cried more than once. I never forget that experience that morning. I realized that I was suffering from a severe psychological impediment; The Fear of Loss. I was so scared at the time and my mind kept rehearsing those devastating losses in the market. My mind started to snowball and recall other devastating losses in my life which made me feel perilously unworthy and incompetent. The feeling of inadequacy coupled with the immense fear from loss paralyzed me at that point in my life. I had countless sleepless nights tormenting over the decision why Id even considered trading as a viable business.
I thank GOD for my girlfriend Lillian during that time, who stood by there with me 100% of the time, and my angelic friend Kevin Mitchell who happened to give me his copy of The Secret DVD.
I watched The Secret 3 times a week for 6 months and then every Sunday the following 6 months. This movie reconditioned my mind and body in every which way. I no longer focused my thoughts on past losses and failed endeavors. I strictly focused on new beginnings and channeled all that teaching from The Secret into every facet of my life. I became a staunch advocate and started spreading this DVD to all those whom have never heard of the Law Attraction. I purchased dozens of copies and mailed them to anyone who I believed needed to heed the message from The Secret.
As I look back in 2007 I realized this was a year in which I made the most income in my entire life. Could it be because of my renewed mental outlook and the fortitude needed during these tumultuous periods in my life, or could it be GODs message delivered to me at a pivotal point in my life. I firmly believe it was both. GOD spoke to me through my friend Kevin. I heeded his message through this medium. I internalized the teachings from the movie The Secret and now serve as a broadcast to all those other lost souls who are needing some guidance and direction.