My Brand New Life!
I hope my story makes enough sense for you as to me, since my native language is Spanish and Im putting it in English its also a bit long but I didnt want to miss a detail!
I knew I had to post it because I am amazed at how my life has changed over the last few weeks.
If you asked me how was I doing less than a month ago all, you could hear from me were complaints.
Complaints about my parents, my siblings, my job my love relationship even about my pets!
I remember how I was always terrified because of the news I saw on the TV, and keep thinking that the end of the world was almost here! There were no positive thoughts in my mind AT ALL.
I hit bottom the day that my boyfriend told me that he could no longer be with me; that he had tried hard to make me happy but it was taking everything out of him and didnt seem to make a difference. That he needed to move on.
It was the worst day! I blamed everyone around me because of how I was feeling. I didnt want to do anything! Suddenly I realized it was not just because of the end of my relationship but because of everything!
I was not happy, and kept asking myself what was the reason of me being here?
One Thursday morning while feeling miserable there laying in my bed my mom texted me: Go to my room, theres a book in my bed, you should read it I answered back, Dont start with that, youre not my shrink. And felt upset at the fact that my mom was pretending that a book was going to change my life. Well, you know how they say that moms are always right? There was no difference this time.
I got out of my room for the first time in I think 3 days and walked into hers, still thinking that there was no fix for me.
That was the first time I saw El Secreto (of course she had the Spanish version.) I read the entire book in 2 hours, then I fell sleep and woke up an hour later, thinking of how hard it was going to be for me trying to manage of all of my thoughts!! In order to get what I want it.
And still with doubt I felt something inside of me that I called the inspiration that change my life. I felt that THAT was the right moment.
So I began.
At the next day as I got out of bed I remember all of the blessings that I had in my life.
For the first time in YEARS! I didnt turn on the TV as I always get ready for work while watching the news. I showered and then I knew that that was the beginning of my brand new life.
There was still some doubt in me as I said.. if Im in my room I can manage to think well and to think positive but whats going to happen when I meet my friends or my co-workers? If our daily talks are always complaints, debts, broken dreams etc, etc?!
Well, I still need it give it a try
I went on The Secret website as I got to work, read everything I could about the book. And as I continue doing this I start to feel happier and happier!
My days were different, I felt truly grateful for every little thing in my life which by the way is enormous! Over the next few days I said to myself I have to get a whiteboard were I can post all what I want and also what I am grateful for. So I did. The first thing I really want it was love, to feel love for me and others, so I kept visualizing love in my life.
Now, honestly there are no words to describe what I am experiencing, I know how I can describe it very well in Spanish and I do hope that the words Im choosing are as deep as my thoughts and feelings.
I now feel, A HUGE GRATITUDE, I feel my heart and soul filled with love, the joy makes me want to dance, my strength is unbeatable, and I can go on and on
All you can see in my face is a big smile, all I talk of is about my perfect life and how I have with me right now what I always dream of.
My relationships with my mother, father, brothers, sisters, aunts, cousins, friends, co-workers etc, etc.. had changed, now all I want to do is tell them how much I REALLY love them! Ive been kissing and hugging everyone in my house every time I can!! I keep posting notes all around me; in my computer, my room, my books, .. with the words GRACIAS, GRACIAS, GRACIAS! (thank you) because I truly feel that!
I feel I was born again, and I know that I deserve all of the beauty that life offers me.
Not to mention that my (for now) ex boyfriend contacted me a couple of days ago and we are planning to go out sometime next week!
There is NO doubt in my mind that my life is going to continue like this!
I now understand that the universe works in harmony with nature and with every one of us, I know now that we are all inter connected and that this positive energy had no boundaries for our dreams.
Gracias, gracias, gracias!