Moving To Fuerteventura.
A quick thank you to everyone involved in the making of The Secret. Also those who shared their stories here and helped me shift my thinking. Thank you so much, you all rock!
So, long story short?
I have been lied to and I have been cheated on. And yet I came out a winner. My life turned upside down after me and my ex broke up in November last year. As many of you know, after a breakup you go through several stages. At this point in time I am at the stage where I am finally free of all the feelings, and most of all, all the pain.
I blamed myself so much for the failure because I lied about something, which really wasn’t that big of a deal in my head. Then again, a lie is a lie. So I guess that one was on me. In life you win some and you lose some. And this was definitely a lesson for me. Then again, I didn’t deserve the treatment I got that followed.
So what has this got to do with the title?
Over the past three months I decided that I’ve had enough of being manipulated and treated like a criminal, and got myself an internship in a creche and also taught English as a volunteer. I needed to go out and get a life, meet new people and desperately needed to distract myself. Also I finally wanted to be treated like an adult and not as a child anymore. I just wanted people to take me seriously. And after over a year of being unemployed, that wasn’t gonna happen if I still sat on the couch.
Now the past couple of months have been quite hard but I didn’t let the negativity get the best of me. I acknowledged my feelings and went with the flow. When I wanted to cry, I cried. Not too often, but I did have to let it out somehow. I used to bottle things up before but not anymore.
I always wanted to travel. And the thing is that after I got out of that bad relationship, I finally stopped putting everyone else first. I put myself first and started working hard for what I wanted. I visualized and watched The Secret nearly every day for a week! I worked pretty much for free and most of the money I had went towards transport to my workplace, creche and teaching in the same building luckily! I saved what I could and spent on things I wanted. Did I feel bad about any of it? Nope. Because money comes easily and frequently! Yes it does and the more you repeat it the more you will believe it!
So for three months I have just done things to help me distract myself and things that will bring me closer to what I wanted to do in the future. I worked 40 hours a week, for free. Did I complain? My brain attempted to do that many times! Did I let it? No! I appreciated what was given to me and I felt grateful. Extremely grateful every single day. You think I only got experience in taking care of children or teaching English to adults? No. I learned many things from those places, unrelated to the jobs. Personal stories that opened my eyes and helped me become what I am now. Even a more grateful woman!
After all the years of talking about traveling and seeing places, I finally got a job abroad which literally happened over 2 days. On day 1 I sent my CV in and on day 2 I had an interview after which an offer followed. Miracle? Seems like that to me! But none of this would be possible without feeling grateful. Funny thing is I visualized the feeling of being told I was offered a job about 1 week prior to that. I imagined being so happy, almost breathless, nearly crying, jumping around and screaming. I am pleased to tell you that exactly that happened just last week, and I am currently sitting here writing this while staring at my packed suitcases. Flight leaves in about 13 hours. 🙂
When you feel grateful for what you have, even if you don’t have a lot, that’s when big things start to happen for you. Over the years of using The Secret here and there, I have been able to get many things in my life. And just few hours ago I got a bunch of tulips at work from coworkers, after thinking about wanting to get tulips just last week. I mean, for some people it’s just coincidence. But we really do attract what we think about the most.
I hope you enjoyed reading my story and I better go sleep. Fresh start for me tomorrow and new experiences!
Dream big, always have faith and most of all be grateful!