My husband and I have been together for almost 13 years total and married for 8. We wanted to start a family right away, and we were so excited to to discover soon after we got back from our honeymoon that we were expecting. We were so excited, but about 20 weeks into the pregnancy we found out that our son had a rare birth defect where his brain did not fully develop and he would pass away as soon as he was born. We were utterly devastated with our loss.
Six months after we lost our son Max, we got pregnant again on our first try. We were told the odds of this same diagnosis was so rare that there were only 3 other cases in the world like it where it had happened twice. We were terrified, and found out after 10 weeks that this baby too had the same rare birth defect where his brain did not develop.
After going through two major losses within a 6 month time frame, we decided to take a break from starting a family for my body and mind to heal. We waited about 1 year and decided to cross our fingers and try again, but month after month no positive results.
Fast forward 6 years later, and a couple of months after my 39th birthday, we gave up and said it just must not be in the cards for us to have our own child. So on our 7th year wedding anniversary we decided we were going to adopt. A small part of me still hoped, but I just didn’t think it would ever happen, so we started the adoption process and even got a loan to pay for it. Then I stumbled on The Secret on Netflix and watched and something stirred inside me. I had my husband watch it with me. I watched it again and again, I bought the book and even the app and put The Secret to my daily practice.
Three months after we started the adoption process and one week before we mailed the check off to the adoption agency that we would never get back again, I found out I was pregnant! I was in total shock! I was initially terrified because of our past losses, and now I was 39 years old! I put it out of my head and instead focused on having a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby every day!
Our son was born February 1, 2018, 3 weeks before my 40th birthday, healthy as can be!
The Secret changed my life and my thought process. Now I love telling my story to other women who are struggling to start their own family. All the odds were stacked against us, but we wrote our own story and made our dreams come to fruition through The Secret! Thank you!