Thanks for giving me your time.

I am an ardent reader and read everything that comes my way. I never get tired of reading. I came across this book in 2007. I read it, loved it and it’s my Bible for me. I carry it in my bag at all given times since the very first day I brought it. At times I practiced it also, but never intentionally. I have lost the count of the number of times I have read it. I have seen the movie only twice.

I am born lucky. I have had a lovely childhood, and have always got whatever I want in my life. Ups and downs are there but never a struggle. Life has been cool and happy. I am almost forty but never has ever anything gone so desperately wrong that have has a reason to worry. God’s grace has been in abundance over me. I have a petite body frame and don’t look half my age and get complimented for it every single day and touch wood I have no ailments till date and I feel what more could I ever ask. But past two years have not been too good where my job is concerned or where relationships are concerned.

I had been jobless for some time, was thrown out of two jobs and was having a constant fight with my boyfriend at all times. From February, I got a good job. I am well paid and there is no workload or pressure. This job brought a lot of realization unto me of the Secret and how to use it. The whole day through I am on the Secret website reading the testimonials and getting into a self realization of my mistakes and the bad I’ve manifested and the doubts I keep in my mind and the negative callings of my mind. All the stories have taught me so much.

After reading the book so many times also I had not discovered my own folly. After reading the testimonials and practicing a thank you and speaking to the universe also there were no good results. Yesterday, suddenly as I was reading all the testimonials all over again it struck me that one goodness in my life I had attracted in my life but the other goodness I wasn’t because I was being so negative about it all the time. My boyfriend and I have been in a constant fight and though we are talking and with each other things are not the same. He said he was with me just because of our daughter. He stopped calling me, our love-making was not like before, he says he never missed me anymore, he started speaking to me rudely and said he never wanted me in his life. He said I was a folly in his life. Every time I was hurt, for just 2-3 months back I was floating on cloud nine and basking in his love. Suddenly what went so wrong I could never understand? But yesterday I did. It was my thinking. I was scared from within, I doubted, I kept on telling my kid to keep on asking him if he loved me or not. I used to manipulate and manifest things of negativity. I have manifested emails to his ex and when I came to know we have fought like crazy. He would never give her up saying they were just friends no matter what ordeal I went through. He called up my daughter to speak to her yesterday but I did not hear from him at all and I was sad. We were to go for a long drive and dinner tomorrow but I did not see it happening as 2 days back there was a death in his family and he had to go there and said he would be back only on Sunday.

Yesterday, as I was reading The Secret it dawned to me all my folly. Now I changed my thinking. I told my daughter too of it. Yesterday I said he loves me and does miss me. I started thinking of all good things. And Lo & Behold!!!!!! I was walking my way to the office, he called me and when I asked him how come he called he said to inquire about me. I did manifest his call. When I finished praying in the morning and turned round to the Universe to give thanks for the beautiful day, I said I wanted to hear from him and I did. He also said he will try to come around tomorrow. So now I am manifesting our long drive and dinner and his love and trust like ever before to me.

I will keep you’ll posted and very soon as I have realised my folly and am going to work around it and change it totally.