A year ago I felt like I had hit rock bottom. My relationship was failing, my business wasn’t too far behind, and I seriously contemplated suicide. For years I had been a single mother struggling to survive. I had gone to college and law school but couldn’t find work to save my life. I opened my own law firm right out of law school and it was bringing in some money but not enough to justify the expense of law school. My fiancé had gotten hurt at work and I was responsible for us and our blended family of six children. For 13 months I was the sole provider for a family of 8. One day as I was leaving for work, I looked at our five year old daughter’s face and tried to remember every detail because I knew I wouldn’t see her again. I was going to kill myself and I just wanted to hold her face in my mind as long as possible.

As I drove to my office that morning, I cried so hard. I was so tired and depressed and I knew I was giving up. That morning my mother called and said my brother would be in town in a few days. My brother, who lives in Amsterdam, rarely comes back to the U.S. to visit. I desperately needed to see him before I ended my life. He had no idea what I was planning or the struggles I had been going through. In fact, he was certainly the biggest pessimist I knew. We would share stories of our misery, laugh about it, and go back to our miserable lives. This time when I saw him he was different.

My brother, the lifelong pessimist was happy! I thought surely he had to be on drugs. This man is never happy. He told me this was the first time in his life that he was truly happy. He asked me if I knew about “The Secret”. I asked “What secret?” and he took me to the movie on youtube. Surprisingly, I noticed the seal right away. I replied “Hey! I think I have this book. I bought it about five years ago through a book club but never got around to reading it” I watched the video and was still in disbelief. However, I couldn’t shake the fact that my brother was actually happy (or on drugs lol).

I didn’t jump immediately. I didn’t believe right away. I tested the method in a way that I would know it worked. I wanted a big case. I asked specifically for what I wanted in detail. I didn’t worry about it because I had nothing to lose by asking for it. I read the book after watching the video and then checked out The Secret on CD and listened to it my car for a week straight. About a month later, the big case came in. I was able to use that money to catch up on all my late bills. I created a journal where I would ask for what I wanted and write it down when I received them.

Two months in, this was fun! I began daily meditations and the good days started to outweigh the bad days. My firm started growing rapidly and I was getting a reputation for being to go-to lawyer! I kept working hard and pretty soon, I was having to turn away business. I keep the book of The Secret on a table in my office and shared the good news with my clients when they asked about the book. One client even stated that he believed in the law of attraction and The Secret had led him to my office!

After about six months, I wasn’t having any bad days at all. Sure there were points on some days were something unfavorable might happen but it didn’t spoil my whole day. I have had the opportunity to meet professional athletes, travel (including an all expense paid trip to Washington DC), appear as legal analyst on a radio show, etc. The sky really is the limit. I am so grateful!

People who knew me before The Secret are asking me the same question I asked my brother “Are you on drugs?” No drugs, no alcohol, just pure bliss knowing that I control my own life. I feel like Dorothy on the Wizard of Oz when Glenda told her to click her heels three times! I wish I had The Secret much sooner but I am so glad that I have it now! And by the way, my once failing relationship is better now that when it first began! Loving my life!