When Life Felt It Ended, It Was Really Only Beginning.
It was the 11th of November 2015. It was a cold, wet, and grey day. I woke up with a feeling of anxiety as though something was not quite as it should be. I had a feeling of guilt consuming me. I had spoken with my father two days previous and had promised that I would visit him the day before which I did not do, due to being a 22-year-old, sociable girl who did not currently have her priorities in place. That is a decision I will live to regret my entire life. I began to get dressed reaffirming to myself that my father won’t mind me being a day late if I get to his house nice and early and apologize.
As I approached my father’s house, the lingering anxiety began to increase as I noticed that he had not opened his curtains that day. ‘This is odd,’ I thought to myself, as my father always opened his curtains every morning. I began to tap on the door, no answer. I began to tap on the window, no answer. I knew that there was something strange going on. I called my sister and she came to meet me to help me find our Dad. After making a few phone calls to friends and relatives and establishing that my Dad had not been seen in two days, we decided we must enter the house to see what was going on. What if my Dad was in trouble? What if he was in the house and needed my help? I had to go in. As we kicked through the locked door, my worst nightmares were confirmed. There was my Dad, he had passed away whilst laying on his couch watching TV. The world froze as I tried to take in the situation. I fell to the ground with terror, unable to speak, cry, barely breathe. In that reality, life did not only end for my father that day, but for me too.
As the days went by, no words could describe the immense grief that ran through me. I was numb to the world and I continued like this for some time. My grief led to depression and anxiety. Most days I could not leave my bed, let alone leave my house. I had lost my Dad and I had lost myself. Life did not feel worth living. I had never heard of the law of attraction and I had certainly never heard of The Secret. This was a world that was closed to me. I suffered from panic attacks every single day. The simplest of tasks were nearing impossible and the day of the 11th of November 2015 kept replaying in my head over and over again. I tormented myself by asking what would have happened if I had done as I had promised and visited my Dad on the day I was supposed to? Would my dad still be here now? Could I have saved him? So many unanswered questions that left me with crippling guilt. I felt my life was at its end.
Fourteen days later it was almost Christmas. Although my family was suffering from grief we tried our hardest for the sake of the children in our family to put on a brave face to the exterior world. I knew that my partner had wanted a certain book for Christmas, so I reluctantly forced myself to get dressed and went in to town to purchase it for him for Christmas. He had tried to help me so much throughout this time so I wanted to at least try and get him a Christmas present to show my appreciation, even if it was just a football book he had asked for.
Whilst in the book shop I scanned the isles for his requested book. I finally spotted it on the top shelf. I tried to stretch up but I failed to reach it. All of a sudden, another book accidentally falls from the cabinet and I catch it. I glance at it before almost returning it to its place on the shelf. Its brown and gold exterior entices me to take a second look. “The Secret” was the title. I immediately thought this must be a fictional novel but an urge inside me led me to open the book that had just literally fallen into my hands on one of my first days leaving the house during the darkest time of my life. I could not believe it as I scanned Rhonda Byrne’s foreword “A year ago. My life had collapsed around me. I’d worked myself into exhaustion, my father died suddenly,”.
Those words were like my own! I began to feel as though a higher power was working. As though this book was supposed to fall into my hands. This was exactly what I had needed at that exact time in my life. I took The Secret to the counter to pay and I raced home to see what else I had in common with this book. At home, as I continued to read page after page, I began to feel as if this book was written for me. I began to understand my life, everything that had been and gone, my life events, the good and the bad, it all made sense to me. I felt a passion in my gut that I hadn’t felt before. In fact, that was the first time I had felt anything other than despair since the day I lost my Dad. I had hope in my heart.
Don’t get me wrong, life was still incredibly tough but I relentlessly continued day after day to practice what The Secret had taught me. I know I could think myself out of this hole of terror that I was in. I knew and I believed that I could manifest a happy life for myself again. I knew this because I believed what the book had taught me. I began to practice the law of attraction in all aspects of my life. I still grieved, but now with the help of The Secret, I had a fire in me and a passion to manifest a bigger and better life than I had originally. I knew I was never going to get my father back, but I knew that it was up to me to make myself happy again.
I practiced affirmations every day. I watched The Secret documentary, I purchased The Power and I practiced the law every day as strongly and as passionately as I could. I began looking at what I had in my life that I was grateful for and completely shifted my mindset. I could feel myself shifting to a higher vibration and that’s when I started to see results. Through gratitude and the teachings of The Secret, I began to control my grief and anxiety without any sort of medication. I only have the book to thank for the happy place that I am now at.
Day by day, piece by piece, my life began to rebuild itself. I felt happy again, I could smile, laugh and I could once again socialize with friends outside of my house. I write this story exactly three years from the 11th of November 2015 to give hope to anyone who is suffering from grief, depression, or anxiety to let you know that this book fell into my hands that day to save my life. I truly believe that without the law of attraction I would not be here today to tell my story. I am truly grateful for the teachings of The Secret and I want to let as many people in the world know that anything is possible if you take control of your mindset. I hope this story will bring hope to someone who feels as though they are in a hopeless situation. Thank you.