Letting Love Lead My Way.
There I was on the plane about to set off on a journey that would change the whole trajectory of my life. I had decided to leave South Africa for good. I packed my bags knowing this was goodbye to the place I had called home for almost all my life. I had made a promise to myself that I was going to do this crazy thing and follow my heart and see where it leads me, with no plan other than my month-long teacher training in Bali. No plan, just faith that love would lead the way.
I remember arriving at my training and standing in the yoga shala overlooking the ocean. It had taken me three years of trust and belief to get me there and there I was standing there almost in disbelief that I was there. I manifested this, I thought to myself.
That month was one that I would describe as one of the best decisions and investments I ever made for myself. I had literally spent my last savings on this course. I had full trust and faith that by doing what my heart called for, the Universe would provide.
A week before my training ended it dawned on me that I had no idea what I was doing and visceral fear swept through my entire body. I asked to speak to my teacher, Claudine. She suggested that going to Australia might be a good idea. I had never thought of going to Australia. I looked at her and said, “I have no idea what I am doing.” Then she looked at me in a way that I will never forget, with such peace and love in her eyes. She smiled and replied, “Good, that’s the best place to create from!” I remember thinking, did she just not hear me? In hindsight, this was the best advice someone had ever given me and she was right. So I began to plan what I wanted to create.
I visualized, envisioned, and ended up in Australia after some synchronistic events in Bali that guided me to Byron Bay. I had followed inner guidance. After being there for some time during the Covid pandemic, I got another calling to join “Love Out Loud” by Nicole Gibson. There I did facilitation training, again spending everything I had and trusting in the wisdom of my heart which called me to the Goldcoast.
So off I went again, trusting and creating. It’s been an extremely difficult time for a lot of people around the world over the last year and a half. For me to be traveling with no plan at a time like this brought so many challenges to overcome. Every step of the way I reminded myself of how blessed I am, and noticing everything I had to be grateful for, even with all the challenges I faced.
Then one day I was having a really hard day. There I was, halfway across the world with no plan during a global pandemic. My inner critic said, what am I doing?
Then, synergistically, I found this story I had written here on this very site and everything clicked. I wrote in and shared my story when I was 15 years old. I wasn’t even aware that my writing had been posted until 2019 when I set off on my hero journey. I somehow came across this story I had written called, I Wish To Share My Story. It was as if the whole Universe conspired for me to read it at exactly the right moment. I broke down in tears at my 15-year-old self, because I don’t even remember writing it. Just after I had written it, I had experienced some trauma and completely lost my way. I was partying, using alcohol and drugs, anything to numb myself. I had lost myself which was why I got the strong call to go study yoga in the first place. It was a ‘coming home’ to me, to my heart, to my essence. Reading this article, I remembered how I had been so intensely invested and passionate in personal growth and ancient teachings from 12 years old! I had all these tools and knowledge, now it was time to embody them. It just blew me away!
I am still in Australia, living in the rainforest of Currumbin Valley, where the stillness of nature is healing every cell in my body. I still have a deep passion and interest in the quantum field and I have goals and visions to become a motivational speaker. The last year and a half have been beautiful, expansive, and magical. I have learned to face fears, overcome limiting beliefs, to sit with my suffering, and a journey back to within.
The Secret is really what set me deeply into this journey from 12 years old. I have been guided for weeks to write again and share this. I am finally listening to the whisper that became a roar to share my story, part 2.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, Rhonda.