Rhonda, you are a blessing. You are who was used to show me. And following you as my tool has led me to this. And this is amazing.

I was sitting here and just basking in this. This is awesome. I see. I know.

I have to tell you. I see. And I want to try to explain this to you.

I was searching and searching, looking for what it was.. what I logically knew it was. And then it just happened. And it is humbling. It brings you to your knees. All I can say is .. this is so cool, so much better than I wanted.

You see, when you know instead of just wanting to know, you realize it was here all the time. It is like looking for your wallet and then hours later noticing that it was on your counter the whole time. It is here. What you want, what you desire.. well it really is not what you think it is. You think you will be happy when you get it. And you think you have this desire because you need it to be whom you think you need it to be. But this is not it. You have this desire because this is how you are chosen to express. This desire of yours is not selfish, or what ever else you have believed.

This desire is yours because you are chosen to have it. And when you realize this… that this has been here the entire time… the feelings you had surrounding this desire have now been altered. You now see why you have this desire and what you are supposed to do with it.

You now see it for what it is. Pure love and pure bliss and pure ecstasy.. pure awesomeness.. you are humbled by it, you hit your knees, you cry.

You see a mystical world. You feel the fairy tale. And all you say, all you CAN say, is thank you, and you are filled with wonder and gratitude.

So I know you are trying…you are reading, you are practicing…

Let me tell you… keep going… because it is coming.

It is here all the time.. you just have to keep letting go. And you will see. Just keep letting go. It is so worth it. It is beautiful. It is like that moment after you give birth. It is like when you drop your baby off at pre-school, it is like when you win the marathon. You know that feeling…. visualize that! Visualize that and ask to feel this way 24/7. Because this is it. It is knowing you had it in you all along. It is bliss. It is acceptance. It is Love.

It is so filled with peace and light….this is REAL.

I love you all so much.