I have always been a big dreamer despite my upbringing in a little village in Bengkulu where almost no one speaks English. To some, my hope and dreams were always too big for my own sake. So constantly throughout my short 32 years of life, I have been told that I am setting myself up for future disappointment.

In 2010, I was living in Bali when my heart was shattered after a long distance relationship fell through. A long term plan to migrate to Chicago, IL, fell through and I found myself stuck in a job I never wanted. Little did I know that job turned out to be the biggest blessing for me. Not only for the pre-opening experience of an office, but I also met Kadek, a very dear friend who introduced me to The Secret and the law of attraction.

I got the movie of The Secret and watch it hundreds of times. Through it, I find an escape in my own thoughts. I would look out  the window of the office and see airplanes flying out and convinced myself that one day I would fly out and find my place in this world where I could be my authentic self and be happy. Being attracted to the same sex always made me feel like an outcast.

Now it is 2017. Through so many sequences of events and people that I met, all of which I am very, very grateful for, I now find myself living in Sydney with a partner and about to go to an interview for a job I always wanted. In those seven years that I have been living with The Secret, there have been so many blessings and what felt like miracles to me as they happened. Every time I think about it, it takes me back to that moment when I looked out the window believing that things will happen for me despite my inability at the time to see how they were going to manifest.