I am 34 years old and just beginning my life. I have been using The Secret since 2012 when a friend of mine slipped the book into my hands while checking me into the emergency room in Brockton Massachusetts in hopes that I could find a heroin detox program. I hardly opened the cover that night but she started me upon a wonderfully mad and inspiring journey that has all but transformed my existence.

I am so happy and grateful to be alive today. Those words have been written spoken, scribbled, screamed, and babbled thousands of times. Dozens of notebooks filled with gratitude lists after lists after lists. Here’s the thing, I didn’t get it, I couldn’t get it until right now. This very moment in time was the perfect time.

Yesterday I was with my Father on his wedding day. I watched the man who raised me marry his best friend with Mount Washington as a backdrop. The service was perfect, the weather was fridged and I was literally standing in the kingdom of heaven.

“I am alive!” Those words kept repeating in my heart during the entire ceremony. My beautiful fiance by my side and the whole world at my feet. God was there, is here.

This is the first time I have submitted a secret story officially because of fear. My entire life is a sequence of miracles and unexplained coincidences. Often times the demons were so loud and overpowering that suicide become a widely thought about topic for me. But I never stopped searching for an answer. The Universe strung me along for a decade with little nudges. Those nudges were my lifeline, my heart.

I am so happy and grateful for right now. I am alive! Thank you so much to Rhonda Byrne. Thank you for The Secret. Thank you so much to my Dad. Thank you so much to my Mom. Thank you, Nakita. Thank you, Kim. Thank you, thank you, thank you!