It’s Never Too Late
I decided to share my story with anyone who wished to read it. If it were not for the stories of courage and faith that I continually read throughout the past few months I believe I would have given up all hope of making up with the love of my life and jeopardized the happiness I now know.
This last year or so, you could say that my relationship with my boyfriend was estranged. We went through a range of extreme ups and downs, only to end up splitting and not speaking to each other for 4 months. I tried everything to rid myself of him only to be pulled to the same location as I was in the beginning. For over a month I tried to forget about him, the turmoil he induced was at one point greater then the overall outcome. So I tried ever so desperately to move away. Only the universe had other plans for me. Everywhere I went his name appeared, in ever so random of places, people appeared in my life that explained and gave solutions to my current situation. It was absolutely bizarre, nothing I have ever experienced in my years upon this earth. I couldnt get away from him, so instead of fighting the universe (which is never a good idea in the first place) I decided to follow my path back to him. Although I admitted my deep love for him, we at that point had not spoken in months. Not a word was uttered between the two of us. I started to become doubtful, frightened, and ultimately worried that we could no longer repair what we once had. I started to imagine different scenarios: some good others quite bad. I became worn out to the point of making myself ill. At that point I did something I should have done along time ago: I gave all my control to the universe. I decided that I was just going to let my genie take control and work out the quickest, easiest, and blessed path to lead me back to him. I always knew we were meant to spend our lives together, as cheesy as it is Ive always believed him to be my soul mate, a feeling deep within kept reminding me even when I mentally wished to forget. I know now it was my guardian angle, my genie, keeping me on the path to what I wanted deep within. So I gave it all up.
I finally allowed myself to truly love him, love my friends and family, and most importantly myself. I stopped worrying about the past, the time spent apart and I just loved all aspects of life. Realizing that everything happens to teach us a lesson, and make us stronger in the future, I took what I had in the present as the greatest gift of all. Well it got me through the days, and better cleared my mind to enjoy the future.
After all that it came to a simple as a letter. Something I had thought about for months but too scared to do. Event though that nudge from within was there I still let my pride and stupidity interrupt my true path. After letting go I finally wrote David a letter, apologizing for everything and thanking him for all that he gave me. Just to mention sending the letter came to me one day in the shower, months ago, but I refused to listen. Needless to say we rekindled our love faster then I would have thought possible. In fact, we both realized that we were always meant to be together, that upon reconciling, David proposed to me. We are now engaged and taking life on together; and all it took was for me to muster the courage to follow the path the universe set in front of me and to remain happy throughout the days.
Well I wish I could convey the happiness one feels when they truly are on the path to whatever it is they want. But I can say, nothing is impossible. Where at one point I thought something could never be achieved I now know everything can be achieved as long as youre willing to have complete faith and trust that all is to work itself out; and the only way nothing appears is when you choose another path. Other than that its bound to happen at the correct moment in time, when it will make you the happiest human being in the world.