I watched The Secret about a year and a half ago, and although some things I received were very obvious – such as receiving a large sum of money as a gift – other things kind of evolved very subtly. It was not until I looked back on different situations that I realized how much things had changed in my life. It was with some surprise that I realized, “Wow, I never really get depressed any more” or “I’m no longer anxious over doctor appointments” etc. It is starting to come so much more naturally now for me to turn things around if I’m feeling down or if something’s happening that I don’t like. I realize that even though feeling fear, anxiety or depression etc. are feelings that are unpleasant it is, for most people a familiar habit that really takes some conscious thought to break. It is what most people are used to and what they then naturally fall into because they don’t know any other way. Now when I feel hurt or anxious or fearful or mad- or any other negative feeling- I acknowledge that I can either choose to let it go or I can stew in it and attract more negative things. It is all up to me!! How incredible. I realize now that all those negative feelings are useless and do nothing but take away from my own happiness.

I am amazed at the difference it makes in my whole life. For example I was a chronic worrier; a reaction to a lifetime of scary, terrible things happening since childhood. I, and my family growing up, felt that life just happened to us and that disaster was always just around the corner (and it actually was) I have always been an optimistic person, however, and I have always been determined that I would make my life different than that of my childhood. And, in that way I have been very successful. Still, I’ve had many fears and anxieties that I have been struggling with all my adult life. And they would affect my life.

Just to give you one example, if either of my kids were going anywhere my stomach would be in a knot the entire time they were gone. I knew it was ridiculous and that there was no real cause for me to be so anxious but I just couldn’t keep the fear inside of me quiet. Now when one of my kids are going somewhere I honestly feel excited for them. I have no real fear. I tell myself that the world is a wonderful place and I am so happy for them that they are going to have a great experience- whatever it may be, and that the whole world is out there waiting for them to enjoy. What a difference!! I can now trust that life is good.

It is amazing that even when something bad does happen I can handle it with a calmness that I have never had before, and can actually have good things come from it. I can now see how God has blessed me and has been leading me toward this time in my life. It is incredible all the things that have come to me in the past year and a half- spiritually, emotionally, financially- it is all coming to me. It is all there, and I am astounded at all the good that continues to happen in my life and in the lives of my family.

Thank you for sharing all of this with everyone. I can’t thank you enough.