For years, my parents basically told me I wasn’t “good enough.” I should, but I can’t. I have to, but I can’t. In the end I just ended up settling for that. I believed everything they told me.

They live life on what I refer to as “the emergency lane,” meaning that they exaggerate and they focus on one little bad thing, and this would ruin their whole day. I was taught that I was responsible for their happiness, and began to rely on others to make me happy.

There must have been something inside of me, though, that said I was worth something more, despite how much I was smothering it to keep my parents happy. In December, I managed to attract to me my first boyfriend, who taught me that I was really worth something, and that I could escape the awful downturn my life had taken recently.

He loved me and supported me enormously, but managed not to allow me to rely on him for happiness – and now that my parents separated us, I realise how much that has helped me get back on track with God and with The Secret. I know he still loves me, and I know I will be with him again soon. Although he is a cynic of epic proportions and refuses to even try out The Secret, I am planning something huge that even he will be unable to explain without it!

I know, like I know, like I know that I am receiving NOW! And it’s an amazing feeling.

I know you’ll be reading these someday soon Steven, and I want you to know that none of this would have been possible without you!