I want it all right now!
My story is about impatience.
I have struggled with having patience in my personal growth, although I have loads of it for everything and everyone else. The information in The Secret was not new to me – I had read about the Law of Attraction and the power of gratitude over 20 years ago in a book by Florence Scovel Shinn called “The Game of Life and How to Play it.” This too was written about 100 years ago, as Rhonda’s inspirational works were.
In fact, almost every spiritual and metaphysical book I have ever read has touched on at least a part of the information from The Secret. And for a time I would really work at the suggestions from these books. But over time, I would fall back into old thinking patterns and many of the patterns of my life would remain essentially unchanged. Why? Because I would get impatient for results. Things did not change fast enough for me. Where was my abundance? My new life I visualized? Or even my divine inspiration?!
The “techniques” described in The Secret are not really about getting the outer trappings of life (the money, house, car, relationship, etc.) – those things are the icing on the cake. The cake is the new, abundantly satisfying inner relationship I am developing with myself!
What I found for me is that if I focused on those outer things, the vibe I was sending out to the Universe was one of wanting (not already having). If I didn’t feel fulfilled within, no amount of affirmations were going to change the outer picture, because the right feeling was not really there – it was all still wishful thinking. The affirmations began to create what seemed like the opposite of what I was affirming for because they were said out of desperation – out of not wanting what I was currently experiencing! So the genie of the Universe heard that feeling tone and brought more to me.
I have stopped trying to create the outer picture of what I think WILL make me happy and have turned to my inner life and am learning to BE happy. I cannot emphasize enough that the key is to be really, truly grateful for everything you already have, because it puts you in the right feeling tone. If doubts, fears – any of those emotions we label as negative – pop up, don’t try to shout them down with affirmations. Instead accept them, even thank them for the information they are providing, and then let them go – however many times it takes, just for this moment, whenever it pops up.
In this way I have learned non-resistance to my negative feelings so they do not persist for very long. It is from this peaceful space that I do my gratitude work, which is the key to opening the floodgates of abundance in all areas of my life.
I still have to remind myself to be patient with me, but you know what? I’m worth it!