I Love Life Even More
I was always the little girl dreaming of far off places and amazing adventures. I knew life was meant to be special and beautiful and it was. But growing up in a family with many problems including drug abuse, physical and sexual abuse I lost my dreams and began to think that life had no real joy, beauty or happiness. I fell into depression from the age of 15 until I was 28 and attempted suicide once too. People would tell me, Why are you depressed? You are beautiful, young and have so much to look forward to. And I wondered the same thing, but for some reason I couldn’t get passed the things that had happened to me and thought it was my lot in life to always have bad things happen and I could do nothing to change my situation. But my life majorly changed 6 years ago when I moved back to my home-town and fell in love with my childhood sweetheart. He was everything I had been praying for in a man, handsome, intelligent, strong, loving, loyal and creative. I began to see life as beautiful again and somehow I knew I had drawn him into my life because I knew straight away that he was the one I would marry one day and I knew he was the one I had always dreamed about. Even though I had known this man almost all my whole life and always thought he was something special, it wasn’t until I started to get specific about what I wanted in life and in a man that I fell deeply in love with him. See I come from a past with sexual and physical abuse so trust was a hard thing for me but with him, I felt and knew I was completely safe, which also confirmed to me that he was the one for me.
To cut a long story shorter, I’ll tell you how The Secret has changed me and so changed my life. Because of my past I pushed this amazing man away even though I was deeply in love and knew he was the one and I now know why. I started to doubt that I deserved him and so started to worry so much about loosing him and then loosing him to someone else that it eventually actually happened. I was devastated but because I had no answers I made things so bad through my focus on what I didn’t want that he refused to talk to me. His reaction only caused me to feel justified in my lack of trust in men. Even though things were bad between us I knew in my heart he was the one for me and no one else, even before I read The Secret I knew that if I believed enough we would at least be friends again. And I prayed for that to happen.
Many times in the 5 years that followed I came close I know to winning him back but because I didn’t understand the power of my thoughts I would push him away again and again. I knew he loved me, but I had surrendered to just being friends and thought it was better than not having him at all in my life, because he had began a serious relationship with someone else, but still in my heart I kept thinking he is the one, I love him and I know he loves me. It wasn’t until about one and a half years ago that things started to change, I know now it has only taken so long because of my lack of believing he was mine. Well I read a few books a year and a half ago and one was The Secret, I loved the message of The Secret but only applied it half-heartedly so received results that were exactly that. It wasn’t until I hit a brick wall with him – hearing that he was engaged, things with my family and friends turned bad too and being broke and unemployed that I began in my great despair and sorrow to read The Secret again. This time though when I read it, it was different. I knew I needed it to sink in and I needed to eat, sleep and breathe it until it became the way I thought in every part of my being. I write this only 2 months down the track from when I decided this and as you can see from the title I don’t recognise my life of myself (in great way). In two months I have manifested a new life, I have a new beautiful brand new car that I could only dream about, a new business that is going to be a multi-billion dollar business, a beautiful new house in France, through a million dollars that I have won through tattslotto (and I never play) and most importantly, I have the love of my life back in my life and he has asked me to marry him and we are planning on moving to France together to start a new life and build our dreams…life is once again beautiful. If I can do this, a girl who, like Micheal Beckwith said, “had nothing” … then you can too. Commit to living by The Secret and watch your world will become like a dream.
There is so much more I have manifested through knowing my own personal power, clothes I want, money, people behaving differently and responding differently, The Secret Book two days after giving it away to a friend I received it two days later for my birthday. The quick sale of my car (two days after advertising it) so I could buy my new car that week…. I have even used it to get parking spaces like someone from The Secret, I have used it with getting flies out of my house and little things that I want to happen. Did I mention that I am a week away from reaching my dream weight that I have never been able to reach before…. life really is amazing with The Secret.
Let me finish with this scripture I read when I had a bad moment of doubt (and I have had quiet a few up until recently). “God has put everything under our power and hasn’t left anything out of our power. But we still don’t see it all under our power” Heb 2:8.
Believe and you will receive, it is that simple….
Thank you especially to Rhonda and Michael Beckwith whose words through their CD’s, the book and the video have kept me focused on what I want instead of what I don’t want anymore…. thank you thank you, thank you with all my heart, you are a gift from God… Michael Beckwith, your words especially kept me going through the tough moments in this transition. I learnt to be still and take my focus off what I don’t want and instead put my focus on what I wished to experience…indeed “energy flows where our attention goes”.
Thank you also to the other writers and all of you who have shared you’re stories. You have inspired me to do greater things so I hope I will now inspire someone else to believe…..Thank You God/Universe and thank you all!
May The Secret bring you the joy it has me. My love goes out to you all. Keep believing, never loose faith and even if you do get up and believe again, your faith can only grow.
Your life can be whatever you want it to be, for real!