I’ve often come to this site and wrote about how I was feeling and what I wanted. Looking back now I realize that while I could reason and know exactly what The Secret was and how it worked, I was not at a point where I was feeling it rather than thinking it through.

I broke up with someone who made me very happy quite a while ago now. And though he kept coming back into my life for a few tiny stolen moments I always lost him back into thin air. As if I was calling him with The Secret but not knowing exactly how to use it to keep him there.

Then, a few months ago I made a very hard decision and decided to distance myself properly from him. To get some space and to concentrate on MY happiness first and foremost. At first it felt all empty and pointless. If he was not part of my every waking moment in some direct way, even if it was reading what he was up to over the net, what happiness could I look forward to? Work and other commitments I had lined up looked heavy and I was not up for any of it.

But then slowly I started realizing that what I had was already enough to feel so happy about. Not in a jumping in the air kind of way, but in a deep calm soothing and serene way. I suddenly started feeling calm and peaceful. Not anxious. Knowing that I was where I was meant to be, doing what I should have been doing, surrounding myself with the people who were meant to be around me at that time. If my ex would eventually be there again, then he’d find a way. Even though we were not in contact at all.

And then a few weeks ago he got in touch and since then the contact has been steady if not a daily thing. We met too, and the chemistry was right where we had left it.

But I am a different person now. And know that whatever transpires of this I will remain happy. Because I already AM happy and content. And if he is meant to get back into my life and make me happier, so be it. If not, I am sure that someone else who can contribute to my happiness will turn up.

And this is The Secret, I believe. Not the obtaining what you want, though that is part of it. But rather knowing the power you have to make and keep yourself happy because everything starts and comes back to you. And not from someone or something else.

So, yes. Perhaps I’ll be back here to write about how this past important relationship has re-flourished, or maybe I’ll be back and write about something completely different. What I do know, though, is that then, as now, I’ll be as happy as I feel.

Thank you!