I started reading The Secret about a week ago. While reading it I tried practicing some of the helpful tools & “games” that are suggested. Little things started to happen & I half regarded them as coincidence. So I decided I would give the book a deeper look while on my way to Utah to visit my family & my cousin Shauna, who I adore & consider my own sister & who has really been a sister to me after my sister passed away 3 years ago. She was having a baby shower that I just had to go to because I’m so excited for her & jealous because I want a baby so very much!

After seeing her & talking to her tummy (Ian Niklaus Spendlove) all weekend, I realized that I wont be able to be in his life as much as I would like to be, & maybe he wont know how much I love him & I might not have as much of an opportunity to get to know him as much as our other family members that are in Utah will, & what if I never get to show him how much he means to me already! Even though he isn’t even here yet!

Well it just snapped in my mind that these are the wrong thoughts to be sending out to the universe & that if I think & say “I wont get to… & I will miss out… & he wont know me…” then the universe will grant those thoughts & make them so! Right then & there I decided to think about how much I already love him & want to be there for Shauna & Nik (her husband) & beautiful little Ian.

Two days ago Shauna called me. We usually don’t talk on the phone but I was very happy to hear from her. We ended up talking for about an hour! About anything & everything & by the end of the conversation I asked her: “So, am I like his second cousin or something?” & she said: “No I think aunt Katie sounds much better & has a nice ring to it”. I was so excited because I had lost my sister & would never have the opportunity to be an aunt so I felt so special & wanted & loved & I knew it was because of all those positive thoughts I put out into the universe about wanting to be around him & wanting to be very important in his life, & I really believed I would be & really let myself enjoy those good feelings.

I thought things couldn’t get better… I had used The Secret to attract a wonderful gift into my life & it worked! So, to my surprise & delight, I got an e-mail today from my cousin Shauna telling me that when she first got pregnant she & her husband decided on having their moms & medical staff only in the room when Ian is born. Well, she said that Nik called her yesterday & told her that he decided that he wants both their moms & MEEEEE!!!!! to be in the room when Ian comes into the world & takes his first breath & cries his first cry, & I get to see all of it & really be important & I get to tell him some day that I was right there to be one of the first people to say hello to him & kiss him & love him! I am overwhelmed & still have tears in my eyes. I just didn’t think anything like this would happen because I am so far away & it will be hard to work out the details of getting there in time for the birth but I just know that if I put those positive thoughts out there & let them cross my lips that I will be there just in time & wont miss a thing because I really believe in The Secret & how powerful it is!

So thank you very much for introducing it to me because I don’t know if I would have had this opportunity without it.