Husband, Career, Travel, Baby, And Now Body.
I am here today to express my complete and utter gratitude. I sit on my bed typing this and peer lovingly over to my beautiful 9 month old son, who has come into our lives and changed everything for the better.
I’m not going to lie, I have been deeply affected for better and worse by the law of attraction. When I’m thinking bad or anxious thoughts, bad and anxious things have happened. His birth and the first 4 months of his life were a manifestation of those bad, anxious, and worried thoughts but getting pregnant with him, having him in our lives, all of my wonderful jobs and career moves, the love and my marriage to my husband, the places we’ve gotten to travel, the house we live in, the charmed circumstances of our lives, all those things have certainly come from my positive thoughts. We are even going to be going on my dream vacation in about 2 months.
So much of it has been about belief systems, and that’s why I share with you what was a long 7 months of my life. After having my baby, I truly loathed my postpartum body. I hated it, I hated the fat, the lumps, the bumps, the sagging, the rolls, the extra pounds, and even the plump face and hands. I hated it. I didn’t see it as beautiful, or necessary, or just the amazing things my body could do and had gone through, or as the aftermath of a beautiful act of motherhood. I saw that all of my other friends having babies were just bouncing right back in ways that I wasn’t naturally bouncing back, and it really started to wear on me. It got in my subconscious even, and I began to say things like, “I am just not lucky when it comes to my body” or “I have bad genetics.” or “I will always carry around this extra weight, it runs in my family.” or “I could diet all day long, and workout too, and it would never make my body right again.” I was so far down the rabbit hole I couldn’t even stop myself.
Well, at 7 months postpartum, and still stuck with the same amount of weight I had at 6 weeks postpartum, I finally did something about it. Well, actually, I didn’t have to do anything on the outside. I had already killed myself with diets and exercises and fasts and prayers and nothing had budged, not the scale, not even any inches on my body. But now at 7 months postpartum, I looked inside my mind and my heart and realized that I had some seriously messed up thinking and I needed to adjust it ASAP. So I did.
I reverted back to what I knew to be true of the law of attraction, that like attracts like, that where energy flows, manifestation shows. I remembered that I had to be positive, and grateful, and loving and to believe. I also had to believe that I had it already, that it was already mine. I imagined what my body felt like at 114 pounds and I just walked around feeling and saying and believing that I was 114 pounds. I didn’t have to diet, I didn’t have to exercise, I ate whatever sounded delicious to me whenever I was hungry and, I said a prayer before every single meal or snack saying, “Bless this food to support this body I have, and the body I want”, and it did. Like a miracle. I lost basically 20 pounds in 5 weeks, and I didn’t have to do anything but ask, be grateful, loving, and positive and of course, believe. It worked like a strike of lightning!
Now, at 9 months postpartum I am so happy to report that I am actually below my pre-pregnancy weight of 118, and at my ideal weight of 114. It happened in just 5 weeks!!!! I’m fitter and healthier than ever, even before having the baby! I am at the beach right now with my husband and my son, and I feel great and look great. I am not trying to be conceited, just completely shocked by the change. I truly loved myself, and that was what changed. I looked into the mirror every day and said, “You’re beautiful and perfect right now and I love you” and I stopped weighing myself for about 5 weeks, and voila! In 5 weeks got to my ideal size and I am so happy, not because I wouldn’t be happy at any size, but because I realize what happiness with yourself is; it’s love! It’s loving yourself and that just attracts every good thing to you.