Growing with a secret
From a very young age I was always different. At the age of 6 I started to show signs of mental and physical problems, which doctors described as tics/habits. Dozens of doctors, tests, and years later, I was diagnosed of the illness Tourettes Syndrome. A chemical imbalance in the brain that makes your body do weird things, from noises to involuntary movements.
This was all very difficult for me and my family to watch me grow up with. I knew I was different. Besides my Tourettes I had strong imagination. I used to believe that I could make things happen. If I concentrated on it enough, focused, I could change the weather, make a bus come instantly, even look into someone’s mind and manipulate them. I was young and ill and spent most of my time alone indoors, hiding from the world.
As an adult I became very strong. My Tourettes was no longer running my life, I had learned to live with it and control it. I have accomplished a lot in my life because of having the get up and get on with it attitude, with no fears holding me back. When people put me down, I get up twice as strong and surpass them.
I continued to use my belief that if I focused on something and believed, it will happen, no matter what the odds, it will work. Eventually I lost that belief… grew up I guess, and my mind descended into normality of physics and that there is no power.
The last time I used my strong belief was when my wife had problems with her ovaries and doctors said she had polycystic ovaries and that if we ever wanted children we would have to try now. I wasn’t ready for a child then as we had no money and I had just finished university. But we tried for a year, with no luck. My wife, fiancee then, was really unhappy. Being a mother was the most important thing in her life that she wanted. When we moved into our first home, I daily put my hand on her belly and focused on her getting pregnant. Within two weeks I got a call from her – she was pregnant. It worked.
We had our baby boy, but I lost my job. My past 18 months have been hard and nasty. I no longer used my beliefs. Until recently I discovered ‘The Secret’, and that it wasn’t silly childhood beliefs. The law of attraction is real, and I will now continue to use it. I already feel more lively and happy about my future.