Giving up and regaining the power
When I was ten, my mother taught me Silva Mind Control. She told me to visualize what I wanted and it would come true. I had a science test the next day, so I visualized a big 100 circled in red at the top of the page. Two days later the teacher returned the tests. On top of the page was a big 100 circled in red, but the second question had a big X next to it. I had gotten one wrong. When I told the teacher she examined the page, realized I had gotten one wrong, and gave me the hundred for my honesty. I knew I was on to something.
Flash forward twenty-four years. The Secret has guided everything in my life. I started my own company at 21 and said that by the time I was 27 I wanted it to pay me a salary, without me working at it, so I could travel the world. I’ve seen almost every continent and have sold the company for a large profit.
When I went looking for homes, I couldn’t actually afford the ones I wanted. Realtors told me it was impossible, that I wanted too much. It was fun to watch their jaws drop when the exact house I asked for at the exact price came on the market. Both houses brought me tremendous returns.
I wanted to figure skate, and at 27 ended up trying it out only to find that I was good at it, but I wasn’t certain I wanted to spend the high amount on coaching and ice time. A job became available teaching young children how to skate. It gave me the money for coaching and free ice.
But then something happened. I became frightened the bigger things got. I felt like I was moving so far away from where the rest of my friends and family were at. I met a man that I loved so deeply, and he couldn’t keep up with where I was.
Unconsciously, I gave up my power.
I started focusing on making his life powerful and perfect so that he would be able to focus more on us. I found him his dream job in California and though I didn’t want to move, I went with him. I ended up in a place I didn’t wish to live, in an apartment I hated, losing skating, and though I still traveled all over the world, I began to lose me and my worth. For five years, I was stuck. Anger and resentment resided in my heart, I couldn’t sleep, my health declined, and I stopped believing in my own strength. I became a shell, and believed that no-one could love me.
Everyone began to see the man as this incredible being. His life was soaring while mine fell apart. I became depressed and more than once, he went to leave me, but I clung because all I knew was our love. There was nothing left inside me. Whenever I tried to think about life without him, all I saw was emptiness. I had never felt so lost.
Then my mother sent me the book “The Secret”, and something inside awoke.
I returned to my visualization. I told the universe that I needed to rent a house that was month to month, where I could write and heal, and I only wanted to pay $700. In my area, houses rent for double. I wanted it to be near nature and have a jacuzzi tub. And I asked for the strength to open my mind, soul, and power again. Sometimes the universe answers in a way that is hard.
A fight with my man’s family broke us apart. An eight year relationship was over and I was broken. Yet something miraculous began.
A week later I got my dream, and signed with a big literary agent for a book I had written. Two days later a house became available through a friend for $700, with a jacuzzi tub that was close to the river.
Though the last two months of heartache has hurt so deeply, I had The Secret. I turned to it with every breath. One day I got in my car and said, “Point me towards healing.” I drove for two days in pain and heartache and ended up in the Redwood Forest along the California coast. With each person I met, with every road I went down, with each store I entered, healing happened. People said kind things. I found a massage school and got the deepest healing massage. I found a book that empowered my spirit. Then I found myself driving down a road that led me to a beautiful bay. It was dark, the moon my only source of light. I felt drawn to a large boulder and when I walked behind it, typed in perfect letter into the sand were the words, “MY LOVE IS FOR YOU.” By the time I came home I became clear.
I woke another day and said, “I need love today. And to find the sunglasses that I’ve been missing for two months.” I received a phone call two hours later from my agent, and four women spent ten minutes telling me how much they loved me and my book. I went outside and my neighbor, who I hadn’t met, came across the street and hugged me so deep I thought I would cry. “If you need anything at all, my door is always open, even if you just need a hug,” she said. And of course, I found my sunglasses.
Today I awoke and said, “I need to strengthen my body and re-align after the deep stress. I need a good massage therapist, but I don’t want to pay the astronomical prices they charge around here.” Two hours later, I received a phone call. “I got your name from your friend. I just moved to the area and I’m a massage therapist. I know you are a certified massage therapist, would you like to trade?” I’m getting my massage on Saturday.
The Universe is so powerful, and it’s within. I hope this story inspires people to realize you really can ask for anything. Peace and Love. Marci