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From Suicidal To Unstoppable.
Submitted by: Shweta
IndiaI'm a teen girl who knows that her life is above all this mess.
My story starts when I was 12 years old. I use to live in stress because my mom use to treat me so harshly and rough. Most of the time I would think that she was not even my real mom. That made me feel so bad. It made me feel like I would never be loved. But still there was something that kept telling me that I could be loved. She use to beat me so badly that sometimes her bangles would break and that was terrifying for me. She always wanted a boy child but then there was me, a girl child. She use to taunt me that I was a girl and told me it was compulsory for me to do domestic work. She use to abuse me sexually. I use to cry in the corner and I would tell myself that the biggest mistake I had ever made was being a girl. But still, I knew that I could not do anything with that. I use to hallucinate. I felt like someone was following me and I was so afraid of the dark.
When I was 13, I had decided that I would not live anymore. I even tried to escape and run away from my home but I could not do that. I had even written a suicide note and tried to end my life but I was not able to do that either. That day I realized that ending one’s life was really, really hard to do. And that day a light sparked in me and it told me that I need to be alive.
From that day on, I started raising myself up. Well, my mom use to hate me but the one person that made me want to live was my dad. He really loves me a lot and I really love him so much. When I was 14 he wanted me to read a book called The Secret. I still remember the moment I held that book and it gave me goosebumps. I felt that my life was going to be changed. I read it and I was like what?! Is this true!? So I decided to use it in my life. Suddenly my life was having a new start. Every cell in my body started vibrating with joy.
Ever since then everything has changed. I started my new life. And guess what?! My mom loves me, she really does! She is proud to have me as her daughter. But it took me 2 years to make her realize this. I am 16 now. I manifested so many things. I am loved and I am grateful for that. I love myself deeply and unconditionally. I am single in the view of others but actually, I am dating myself. I know that sounds kinda crazy but believe me, ever since I started loving myself things have been changed miraculously. I take care of myself, I love myself, I shop for myself, I nourish myself, I acknowledge myself, and I am aware of myself.
I am grateful to have such a great dad. Thank you to the Universe. Thank you to The Secret. Thank you to Rhonda Byrne. I’m on my way to manifesting all the good things I desire for myself. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!