Ever since I was small I was always the one kid in the class that no one would talk to, but I would talk to everyone and get blown off by them. By the time I hit thirteen I realized that maybe it’s me against the world, so I became unbelievably mean and selfish towards others. Then again, being gay was a nightmare I always wished that I would wake up from, but morning never came.

Once I hit the age of fourteen I accepted that I’m stuck in this nightmare and I just have to deal with it, but my mom was so irritating that she couldn’t find enough opportunities to rub in my face that she caught me with my neighbour’s oldest son trying to have sex, so I hated her really bad and loved her at the same time. I kept telling this girl that occasionally would speak to me that I wanted to run away from my house and never come back, but I was too afraid to.

Then my mom got sick, and my sister that beats me real bad became suicidal because her husband left her and that’s when I thought, THERE IS NO WAY OUT!

Two weeks later I was planning my suicide when one of my older sisters came in and flung this DVD to me with an unusual picture on the sleeve, and I thought, “OH BOY, what the hell does she want me to do with this DVD?”

She said, “Look at it and hopefully it can help you.”

I said, “Fine,” since I had no social life. I stayed home and watched it and by the time it finished I was so fascinated that I got up and cleaned my room, I changed my music, I went from ghetto music to inspirational pop rock, and I passed that school year like nothing. AND to free my anger I stared writing my life story and I called it, ‘If Only It Was a Nightmare.’

The next school year is senior year and my heart was anger free. I came out to my closest friend and she accepted me. From there everything went smoothly. There was this school I wanted to go to but they requested that pupils have 410 credits or more. I PASSED WITH 450! Nowadays I attend this school, I found friends who love me for who I really am, I have a car with air-conditioning and I even got money to tint the glass AND I DO NOT HAVE A JOB! I even have a stalker who I think is cute! Before this the only thing that stalked me was my shadow! And I have a social life. I actually get called Friday night and get invited to go out. I EVEN SLEPT OVER FOR THE FIRST TIME AT A FRIEND’S HOUSE!

Driving home yesterday from an outing with my friends I realized that all my thoughts have been manifested one by one, and that the last one is being manifested as I’m typing this life-changing story! I have this guy asking me to go out with him and I think that this is my chance for love!

TO EVERYONE WHO THINKS THAT THIS IS A BUNCH OF BOLONY, IT WORKS! JUST TRY TO EASE YOURSELF INTO THE THOUGHT AND IT WILL GO ON AUTO PILOT AND EVENTUALLY THE NEXT THING YOU KNOW, YOU’RE HERE SHARING YOUR SUCCESS STORY! BY THE WAY I LOVE YOU RHONDA! MAY YOU LIVE A LONG, HEALTHY, WEALTHY, HAPPY LIFE!!!!!