From Holloway To Heaven.
I realize now that I had started using The Secret before this year. When I arrived in prison I was in shock and very ill. I had died inside. I felt hopeless. So, of course, nothing changed. But once I had detoxed and was physically well, I found a strength that still amazes me now. I decided, no more! I knew I was innocent, the Universe, God, everyone who knew me, they knew I was innocent. So why wasn’t I walking with my head up and showing no shame?
So I started self-talking, having a plan, making it clear what I wanted, and it all started falling into place. I got moved to a better prison where I made friends, got a job, had family days with my kids, I earned weekends home and I was getting rewards for good behaviour. Everything was falling at my feet and I was so grateful. I started helping others to read or I would lend them stuff. My family would spend time with less fortunate inmates. I made a difference in a place where I shouldn’t have been but it was now saving my soul. I was at peace in there. I was happy with a simple cell, a bed and a kettle. My heart was full of love and faith and I couldn’t wait to show the outside world.
Long story short, I came out and got lost again. I allowed myself to get caught up in old patterns with men and drink.
Then, this year I started reading The Secret. I researched great minds, watched the film several times and then I started a journey which already amazing!
I feel like I’m in a beautiful movie and it’s just a joy. I will be flying to Spain in December to live with my daughters and family. The plans get better every day and we are the closest family ever now. I have so much love to give and pay forward how blessed I am. I love looking in the mirror now. I love the mum I am, the daughter I am, the sister I am. I’ve been sober for 9 months, I donate blood, give to good causes, help others in need, inspire people to do better and comfort people who are lost.
For me, I let go of the resentments that led me to prison. I forgive all who hurt me and ask for the same back. This journey is everything and literally saved my family. Thank you to the moon and beyond.