I started to be depressed by the time I was 12 years old. My mother and father abused me, and my brother sexually abused me when I was a little girl. They called me names and harassed me, and I have been a stressed human since that time I was one year old. When I was 5, I remember I felt like I had a black stone in my heart. My father sexually abused me and made fun of me every day. Sometimes in front of our friends.

When I became a teenager, I was aggressive and outgoing because no one was talking about the horrible things my parents did to me and my brother. I was always on the road for something and I was living so hectic. I started to starve myself with eating disorders. I started to smoke cigarettes. I started to drink alcohol. When I was 20 years old, I found a doctor who started to believe in me and my recovery, and I really trusted her. But my parents were there and didn’t want me to talk to her. They said I was sick and I couldn’t work.

I knew when I was locked in a hospital that something was wrong.  I was scared to death because I was all alone in this. I had no one except a sick mother and a sick father. They didn’t let me be with my siblings. I lost my contact with my friends. I was all alone. With hospital people and my father and my mother.

But in this dark period of time, I came to believe in something bigger than myself. I started to see The Secret every day. That was in the year 2011; now it is 2024. In the year 2011, I saw The Secret. I was journaling every night before bed, which I was grateful for.

And today I am filled with gratitude instead of having an angry attitude. I have myself to thank for that, and I am so proud of myself that I have been so strong. I’m out of the psychiatry hospital. I have a fantastic life to live and love. I have been starting to attract friends again because my heart was broken so I couldn’t attract love because I was so sad. But today, I have compassion for myself. I can be more kind to myself. And I’m taking it one day at a time, slowly. I listen to mindfulness every day. And I am reading books about happiness.

Today, I am a free person who is sensitive and sometimes still scared to death. But I can switch back to happiness to be at my best. Thank you, thank you, thank you so very much.