I have a story for you. It’s a beautiful story, and I know you’ll enjoy it.
A while ago, I was in really bad shape. My grandpa died, my parents were having marital and financial problems, and I was suspended from school for a year because my grades were so low. On top of that, my boyfriend and I had a really bad breakup. It really tore me up because I believed that he was the love of my life.
I was so depressed and anxious that I didn’t sleep for three days straight. I barely ate anything. There were nights when I asked God to strike me with lightning–ANYTHING, whatever it took to make the pain go away.
And He did strike me with lightning–by lightning, I mean an idea so BRILLIANT that it filled me with joy and gratitude.
Lack of sleep and food for three days could have gotten me sick (or maybe even killed me), but I was still healthy and vibrant. Even my roommate asked me, “How come you don’t look so tired?” My health was a miracle, and it made me realize that even if I did all the things I thought about doing to myself, I still would have survived.
I also realized that no matter how many times I asked God to just end it all, He didn’t. And then I realized that I am so PRECIOUS that even God would not take my life.
After all those realizations, I felt for the first time in two or three years how wonderful it is to be alive. I felt so powerful. I can do whatever I want, have whatever I want–I have so much at my fingertips; I just have to reach out and grab them. God has given me everything I’ve ever wanted in one package–LIFE.
Now, I see only good things happening for my family, and I know my grandpa is up in heaven watching over me. I know he is part of the Universe, bringing good fortune to me and my family.
I am also doing everything I can to get back into school next semester, and I know it will happen 🙂
And I got the love of my life back–the love of my life is ME. And this love for myself is so great that I don’t feel like I need someone else to give me joy and show me how great I am–because I have myself <3