7 years ago, I married the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Things were wonderful until he chose drugs over his family and himself. He has been in and out of jail, rehab and most recently a sober house. I wanted it to work, but after years of hiding his addiction, enabling him and losing myself in the craziness of this other life, I filed for divorce last month.
To make matters worse, while I thought we were “working things out”, he was connecting with other former addicts. I was there for him, no one else. How could he replace me? I thought I was worthless and did not even want to get out of bed. Everything in my life was negative and I would constantly think way too much of what horrors have been brought into my life. Until my best friend let me borrow “The Secret”. I read it twice and it has uplifted me beyond words. I am not useless and am worthy of finding happiness and finding myself.
I wake each morning being thankful for my family, friends and a new beginning. I am scared to start over, but “The Secret” has taught me, my thoughts bring things. I was so obsessed with his addiction and not realizing I was and am addict to the addict. I now have hope that someday he will be clean and sober, even though we ended on bad terms. But most importantly, I must start living. I am so thankful for this and how you and your readers have brought me back to life again.