Eliminating Seeds of Doubt
I had come across The Secret about a year ago during the summer of 2007, when I found the book lying on the back seat of my cousin’s car. The book had been a graduation present to my cousin and his graduating classmates from the school’s headmaster himself, and this was a very important factor in convincing me that ‘The Secret’ indeed wasn’t a complete lie. As soon as I picked up the book I was so intrigued, and my feelings at that time are very hard to describe right now. I felt as if I had just come out of a very deep sleep, and I was determined to finish reading the book. I started “living the Secret” for a couple of days, but soon this newfound knowledge was pushed to the back of my head and although for the next year it was always in my mind, I did not consciously apply it to my life.
Come November of 2007, when everything went downhill. My relationships with my friends were worse than ever, my grades were on a declining curve, I was putting on fat, I was constantly worrying about everything, and I started waking up to the many hardships of life. I felt hopeless and lost. While some of my friends were as happy as could be, I felt like I was in the dregs. I searched for happiness, and the only place I could find it was in my deepest imaginations. But even those thoughts were extinguished by reality itself. I was very unhappy and hopeless, and although I picked up “The Secret” and read it once in a while, promising myself to try to live by its principles, I always slacked off after a while.
Come April of 2008, for some reason I felt that I had enough. One day I just happened to pick up my copy of “The Secret” and flipped through the pages. On a sheet of paper, I listed some things that I desperately wanted, some of which included a nice car, a beautiful girlfriend, top grades, acceptance into a top college and such. I felt a new surge of hope and optimism, and during any free time I had, I found myself skimming through the book or looking up the Law of Attraction on the internet. And little by little, I started to see some changes. Despite this, I always had a seed of doubt in my mind. Sometimes I would think to myself that I was just making a fool out of myself and that the only way to be truly happy was to work for it. But I continued to find reasons to believe.
Somehow convinced that The Secret existed, I found myself experiencing it through the little things in life, whether it was through the form of having a day where everything went well, receiving unexpected help while taking a test, saving myself a seat on the bus, pigging out without gaining a single pound in excess, catching a glimpse of my dream car, or willing my teacher to refrain from a drab lecture.
One day in particular, I felt like total crap because I had just found out my terrible SAT scores (I hadnt really thought of manifesting perfect scores), I didn’t know how I was going to explain them to my parents, I completely messed up an experiment that I was working on at a lab where I worked and thoroughly angered my mentor, and discovered a huge lump in the back of my head (being the hypochondriac I was, I freaked big time because I was convinced it was a malignant tumor). My emotions were a disaster and I felt miserable, completely forgetting about The Secret in this panic-depression. While on my way driving back home, I realized that this train of thought would only make me feel worse, so I willed myself to start thinking positively. I turned on some soothing music and although it was sunny, it also started raining. I thought to myself what a coincidence this was; the weather was mirroring my exact confused emotions. I continued to try to calm myself and bring myself back into the realm of positive thinking. Halfway home, I felt a huge calm come over me, as all the anxiety and depression that I had been feeling for the past day wore off into a new happiness. And to my utter amazement, I saw not just one rainbow in the sky, but two rainbows, just stretching across the broad expanse of the beautiful sky, just there as clear as day. I had never seen anything nearly as beautiful, and immediately I knew everything was going to be all right.
As it turned out, my parents complimented my SAT scores instead of berating me in the manner that I had expected, I found out that the lump in the back of my head was indeed natural, and my mentor at the lab told me the next day that he would’ve messed up the delicate procedure himself, and that it was his fault for expecting me to do it perfectly. Imagine the joy that I must have felt.
These recent events have succeeded in eliminating the last seeds of doubt from my mind that in fact this Law of Attraction does exist. With that said, I plan to manifest all good there is for me in life out there. Thank you to those who have brought me this greatest gift of life.